alexithymia
Thread Topic: alexithymia
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Went shopping with my muma and got some super cool jeans and a Caitlyn Kiramman funko pop. She’s not my favourite character but she’s an awesome villain, I just can’t see her as a good person
I had a mini crashout because I thought my mum was mad at me (OCD lolz) and she wasn’t so I’m fine -
I wish I could live with whimsy. I wish I could wallow in nothingness, go on long walks, play with a cat, paint for hours, sleep late and have naps, read everywhere, have showers 5 or no times a day. But I have to do school, and then I have to work, and then I have to be an adult and work more to earn money and live in a horrible society
It’s why I need to make it big as an author so I can do all those things without worrying what I can and can’t afford and dreading work and feeling limited and caged. So I can make a difference and maybe create a life for myself that I could love and I could be whimsical and happy and careless and go out and do cool things, or just stay home and not be productive and I won’t feel bad -
It feels like I’m dreading everything. I’m dreading doing these hard classes, and I’m dreading getting older and having to do harder classes, and I’m dreading moving away all alone and having to drive myself to university, and I’m dreading living away from my family, and I’m dreading getting my degree and having to go out into the world on my own, and I’m dreading getting an adult job and having to worry about money and everything
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would u like support or should I stay silent?
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No thank you, i’ll be fine without it :)
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alr just know im here if u need some.
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thank you, will do :)
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I love holidays because they always give me a glimpse of what my life could be. It always gives me a little hope because it baffles me that I don’t have to be depressed all the time. It makes me want even more to succeed as an author and be able to live off the income my books could make, so I can live a happy life doing what I want for work and not having to worry all that much about money. I don’t want to be rich or famous, maybe just have some enjoyers of my books and enough of an income that I don’t have to worry about not being able to afford life. That’s my goal anyway. I would love to make it big in the industry and to have a fandom for my books, but I’ll be satisfied if I can be upperish middle class by the time I’m 37 with only a part time job and a bunch of books published. I know it’s wistful in this economy but I do not want to think about not being able to afford life
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I’ll never ever be satisfied with my life
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I was packing the dishwasher like I always do and a glass slipped out of my hand and broke. The period blues kicked in and I went to my room and started crying
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I hate that time of the month so much. It’s just moodiness and tummy pain and gender dysphoria combined
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It started on the full moon yesterday does that mean I’m a witch
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My brain feels so loud
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i had a really bad dream last night. my OCD thinks its a sign that something will happen so I've been super scared and sucky-uppy to my parents and any authority figure all day
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Everything was awesome and great all holidays, but 3 days in school and now I’m getting so tired again, just from living. I’m exhausted I don’t know what’s wrong with me
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