Just kidding i did love someone but that someone Ended their life when I was in middle school but I think that has been the closest thing I have ever felt that can be described as love even if I was just a kid
I think that’s also why I have commitment issues and jump from relationships like I’m jumping through Lili pads without giving myself me time
Lmao bro what the duck stop making my life look like it has been hardship after hardship and dramatic as f--- let me name some good stuff that has happened bc I’m not some poor little sad boy from a garbage can and there are people who have had it worse
1- I actually had the fortune of growing up in somewhat middle upper class houses when I was a kid because my dad was part of a law firm. I lost that privilege the day I came out and got thrown to the streets though so I suppose that is my fault. I think that if I would have been normal I would still have a dad/ have him pay the portion of things I still have to pay for school. I wouldn’t need loans and would not be struggling. I’d probably be his pride and joy. Okay but the point is I had a good home and like had food and literally all the toys I wanted.
2-My dad actually did give me a present and that’s my car he said that’s the last thing I’d get from him unless I graduated college so hey at least there’s still a window there
3- I graduated high school and got a really good scholarship out of it which helped me attend the previous university I was at so ayyeee
I think getting thrown out made me realize that the image I had of the real world was soo not it. If I would have continued to be sheltered and getting my dad to pay every single thing I would probably still be the same as I was back then and when I was truly faced with the real world I would not know how to cope
That and I’d probably have a C average gpa or like low B average right now because I wouldn’t understand the value of an education.
High school me when I lived with my parents gave zero f---s about school. I had Cs and Bs. The minute I was dropped like a hot potato I realized that I needed to get my head in the game and study because an education is crucial to surviving.