I’ve been doing the thing u told me to do with the protein shakes and the weights and I was sore and bruised at first but for 4 months everyday bc gyms = shelter when you have no actual plan of shelter
Kermit the frog arms? Don’t know them now I have normal nice kinda addicted to coke looking but still normal width looking arms and have a normal BMI for my body height.
I think that’s why I actually look like a guy, mind you maybe a 17/18 year old one
But at least I don’t look as scrawny as before I can’t thank this forum enough
Reading that back I sound like a good for nothing jobless homeless bum
Okay I was for like a month because it’s a new state what do you expect me to do I was lost and confused and uncomfortable
But like normally I am a functional human being with a retail job a dorm a car some side savings and a college tuition
I just threw all that away to get a new start in a new state
You feel me?
So out of that checklist
I have a car
A motel room/ dorm
College in a few weeks
All I need:
So no the girl that is dating me is not dating s bum I just need to get settled fully and by the time she gets here I will be stable and will be able to present myself as who I was In 2018 minus the party and alcohol and drug part yikes
@ Aoife If u happen for some weird reason to be reading this hi I did not reply back to your email in May bc I transferred over that email account to the girl who worked on that project w me
I stopped replying and contacting you bc even though when We talk via email I connect to you as a Bff kind of way platonically
I knew that if I saw you in person I would cry and the feelings I had for you back in 2016 would come back and I’m not even going to lie during the first 3 months I dated Lydia I lowkey still did have feelings for you and like I previously mentioned I have an so rn and don’t want to mess things up w them so even though you’re my best friend and I really did want to meet you I avoided talking to you because it would mess me up bc the year and 2 months relationship we had has by far been the best year and relationship of my life
I wish nothing but the best for you and maybe one day I will regret not meeting up with you but I’m sorry :( you’re a super sweet girl and I love you in the most unromantic waY. Hope you’re doing well!