N109 Zone
Thread Topic: N109 Zone
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I suddenly dont want to be here anymore...
What even happened? I was doing positive stuff and now im depressed. -
My therapist thinks I might have ARFID. Things have just been off lately, and tonight really felt off. If I eat something I dont have a taste for, my body rejects it. My stomach will hurt and it's hard to swallow. It feels like im going to gag. So I had to just throw away the rest of my dinner. It seems to be the worst at dinnertime. It sometimes affects me at breakfast, but usually I can eat breakfast alright. Sometimes even just the smell of food makes me want to throw up. This isnt new. It's just been happening more frequently. There were years where I would avoid eating because I was either scared I would get sick from eating or my body just didnt want it. Sometimes I would just not eat to the point where I would feel sick and weak. It would eventually randomly go away and I would eat normally, but the fact that it's here again bothers me.
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I don't have OCD.
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When did this become a problem? It happened the night I went to the hospital. I was under a lot of stress and anxiety. Maybe anxiety is one of the reasons why im having trouble eating.
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Nobody ever believes im not okay because I can look perfectly fine on the outside. I've learned how. When I was 12, I remember my parents telling me to stop walking around the house looking sad. So I eventually found a way. Didn't mean I was okay.
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I just want to go to bed.
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I took my anxiety meds before dinner and took deep breaths whenever I felt like my throat didnt want to swallow. I was able to eat all my food.
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I feel jumbled up and depressed.
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I'm sad.
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Heavily depressed.
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I take meds and more meds just to stay alive.
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Everybody's leaning on the walls
I don't think they're ready for the fall -
I never want to leave my room.
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I think im going to disengage.
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Yeah...
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