N109 Zone
Thread Topic: N109 Zone
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I finally feel at peace.
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There's so much vegetation for it to be a place that felt scary at first.
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I'm no longer in a deep fog. It may still be foggy, but not as badly now. Drawing the inner world helped and was maybe a form of communication?
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I think if it gets bad, I'll use spoiler tags too. I've been doing well lately and havent been too descriptive. I put a warning on my entire thread because I never know what will happen and where my mind will spiral off to, but I've been trying to be aware of what I say here. I dont want to trigger people, and sometimes, I even trigger myself.
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I'm gonna be honest, one of the times I checked in, I almost threw up because of what I skimmed across.
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Not talking about something I posted. I don't sh in detail.
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*post
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I wonder if I'll actually be a good therapist one day. Maybe I'll do therapy instead of psychiatry so I don't have to worry about managing medicine.
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Imagine having a therapist who knows what a dissociative disorder feels like, or knows what it's like to have bipolar. I think we need more professionals in the world with actual experience of these things. Not saying more people need to be traumatized. I'm saying that people with these conditions shouldn't feel scared to become therapists because their experience would be so helpful to others and doing therapy would help themselves as well.
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But right now, I dont have that training and certification. I'm just another person in the world. I can share resources, but it's not my place to trigger myself by trying to manage someone else's condition, and I need to remember that no matter how much I want to help.
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So now I feel like im being torn in two. I'm dead tired but my body wont let me sleep. I had 5 hours of sleep last night. I woke up at 4 and just stayed awake since. I feel like I need to be on guard and can't let myself sleep for some reason. I dont understand what's happening.
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I took a short nap around 7, but it didnt last long enough.
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f---. I hate my art. It looks so f---ing stupid. Nothing looks good. It's horrible. My style is so f---ing weird. I cant get it to look more realistic. I hate it. It looks so elementary. I saw a picture on reddit from a 7 year old that looked so much better than my art.
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I have stacks and stacks and stacks of s--- I absolutely butchered and would love to burn. I just f--- it up every single time.
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Trash.
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