alexithymia
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I’m going to be getting so burnt out through the next few weeks. I don’t know how I’m going to be balancing all this s---.
Monday: school
Tuesday: Rehearsal 9-12 + ECP 5.30-6.30
Wednesday: dress rehearsal 1-5 (skipping school because of this)
Thursday: school + band 8.15-4.15
Friday: school
Saturday: drive to city to watch Les Mis
Sunday: come back from city
Monday: Tech run rehearsal 7.25-god knows (have to miss school ugh)
Tuesday: school
Wednesday: preview show 9.40-god knows (missing school AGAIN are we serious)
Thursday: school + 5pm show
Friday: school + 5pm show
Saturday: matinee (11am) + 5pm show
Chat how cooked am I
How am I meant to finish my watercolour painting for art in FOUR DAYS
English: not very cooked I can write an essay pretty quickly
Math: kind of cooked I just need to remember a lot might do some revision for my exam but thats not for a while
History: 60% cooked I’ve kind of got it down but again will need to revise
Science: idek what I’m supposed to be learning or what the exam is on 60%
Art: 50% cooked I can’t do art quickly
Health: kind of my assignment lowkey sucks but everyone’s does so
Music: not very cooked lowkey -
English: 1 essay. Not cooked I can do that
Math: one exam in week 9-10 nah not cooked probably
History: my teacher has been very vague good lord I’ll have to revise probably but all good
Science: I’ll talk to my teacher but it shouldn’t be that difficult, I just don’t know how many exams I have this term -
I’m just stressed about what I’ll be missing in history, math and science. But the musical finished in week 7 so maybe I’ll be fine
And I’m going to get SO burnt out. If I’m crashing out next week this is why. I’m excited for Les Mis, but it just HAS to be in the middle of everything, and I won’t have much time to rest because the city sucks
Idk how much school I can afford to miss. I’ll see if I can take the last Friday listed above off but probably not -
My grades better not be s--- this term. I’m probably overthinking but istg
If I didn’t have everything mushed together it’d be fine, but everything is mushed together -
Ahhhhhhhhhhh
I still have to go shopping for my stupid white shoes because apparently my shoes have to be white and the stupid dress rehearsal is this Wednesday
The dress rehearsal can be my trial for the makeup. If it’s s--- and I hate it I won’t wear it to the dress rehearsal and we can try again after. Istg if my mother does it badly -
I just know this is going to be hell. I’m already overwhelmed from looking at that list. I love performing but the getting there is so stressful, and the feeling of makeup s--- on my face makes me want to cry and claw off the top layer of my skin. It makes my bones itchy
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Genuinely I just can’t. It’s horrible and gross and if my mother does it badly I’m going to look so feminine and ugh
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I’d rather look good and hate the feeling than look bad and find out it’s actually not that bad
We’re doing a trial tomorrow so at least I’ll know ig -
you could always ask some of the kids in your cast if they can do your makeup. Thats what I do for theater
and if it makes you look feminine, think of it as you looking as a drag queen, not like a girl. That's what I do to try and change my mindset -
I was going to, but the directors said we’re not going to be allowed to share foundation and s--- so I’ll get them to touch me up if it does end up looking bad
Thanks, I’ll try that -
I hate these mood swings. I was feeling happy and motivated 10 minutes ago
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Someone needs to tell me to stop being stupid and to just get my ass out of bed and do some painting
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What is this s---
I’m still not motivated and it’s been an hour. Everything is sorted, I found my watercolours, I have no reason to be upset -
Why can’t I just be f---ing normal
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Pull yourself together, Alexi. Stop being such a b----
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