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Thread Topic: Bye L'manburg
feeling pretty lonely.
i'm not gonna be able to see one of my friends for like, two weeks, which makes me sad.
i mean, i can see them on sunday, but we usually don't have actual conversations because he usually has to leave soon.
i won't be able to see him at my youth group because he had something to do but i didn't catch what he said he had to do.
i already miss hanging out with him enough as it is.
also, found out earlier this week, on wednesday, that he doesn't like this other girl.
but, he says he isn't sure if he likes me still.
why are emotions and relationships so confusing?
i kind of don't like myself and think i'm an idiot.
i'm terrible in school,
i seem to mess up things. a lot.
i don't understand things that should be extremely easy to understand.
i always want things i can't get or really shouldn't have.
i feel like i'm being very needy for wanting to be with my friend.
i feel like a terrible person for the things i sometimes say, do, think and feel because apparently i shouldn't be saying, doing, thinking or feeling the things i do.
i sometimes wish i were a different person.
or were in my own little world where i have what i want, the people i'd like to be around, the things i'd like to say and think and do and feel.
guess that'll never happen though.
is it bad that i feel bad for wanting to see him?
i mean, he is my friend and we barely ever talk except on like, wednesday.
and i mean, the fact i miss him this much probably means something.
i don't know.
i'm probably making a big deal out of nothing, like i always seem to do.
i hate that i overreact to the smallest and dumbest things.
like, i feel like i can't take a joke.
i just don't want people making jokes about me because it feels like that's what they actually mean, even though it's a joke and i don't want people to feel that way they joke about me because i'll feel like i've just f--ked up and done something wrong or said something wrong and then i'll feel like i've made a mistake, which i already always feel like i do all the time.
y'know, i'm gonna stop.
people don't need to see my ranting.
Are you feeling okay? 💛
Sxnny_Skxes NewbieYeah, i'm alright, just don't like myself sometimes :')
I get that. But you've got to give yourself some more credit because you're a really wonderful person! Self-love takes time, but I have confidence that you can do it :D
Ty Spice :3
No prob 👈🕶👈
Kind of mad at my mom rn.
She's mad at me bc she thinks I'm doing things on my school computer she doesn't want me to.
I mean, I sort of am. Being on GTQ is apart of that.
I mean, my sisters should be getting in trouble for chatting w/ ppl in VR and for doing things they aren't supposed to do.
But no. I'm the only one who gets blamed.
It's literal BS. Honestly.
Darn it >:0
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