Another Venting Thing
Thread Topic: Another Venting Thing
Times cut short
dragonsfire SeniorHey, I'm always here for you
We care about you a ton, okay? You can always turn to us for support because we're your buddies and we love you 💛
I don’t know what to do
I keep getting close to hurting myself
And I really really want to end everything
Cham, ending things isn't worth it. It may seem like the only way out at the time, but it ISN'T. There are so many people both online and in real life who love you, appreciate you, and care about you. The world would not be the same without you and the people you cherish wouldn't either.
But that’s the thing. The only thing that very stops me is how it’ll affect the people close to me. I don’t want to be selfish, but there’s no other way out for me. I can’t tell my parents that I don’t want to go and I can’t convince anyone to stay. The only things I can do are,
a) move to Maryland and end up extremely unhappy with the entire world and end up committing suicide in some lower-ceilinged, dark, house.
or, b) Finally get out of it and never have to know what it’s like to be as depressed as choice ‘a’ would make me.
I don’t really have two choices, it’s just path b I’m eventually going to execute.
And within the next two months, I’m going to end up killing myself
I KNOW it’s gonna happen
I know it’s either move or die
I can’t explain
Cham, why can't you tell your parents? If you tell them everything you're telling me, I'm sure they'll listen to you. I have faith that your parents honestly care about you and will hear what you have to say.
I have to do it sooner or later
I wish we didn’t have to move
I wish I could stay
I wish I had killed myself before learning about the move
I wish I didn’t have these feelings
I wish no one would remember me
I have. That’s kind of everything here-
My parents don’t care.
I’m sorry if it’s harsh and none of this is meant to sound mean but I’m so frustrated and scared
They're not your only choices, it's just the mindset that you have at the moment. You can tell your parents, you can seek help, you can talk to your friends about it, you can do lots of things but it's just so hard to see when you're feeling like this, I know. But trust me, there are more options then the ones you're seeing <3
Late post oof, hang on
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