I hate what I see when I pass by a mirror. I try and avoid them, except my bathroom which has a huge mirror in it. I can’t wash my hands without taking a look in the mirror and seeing my reflection.
I wish people didn’t say things like, ‘Everyone’s beautiful’ or ‘You’re so pretty!’ Because I’m not, and I never will be.
I hate myself completely. There’s nothing positive about the way I see myself. My face, my social interactions, my personality, and everything else about myself.
I’m not pretty, I’m not smart, and the worst part about my life is that people lie to me to make me feel better. I’m a nobody.
My siblings are all prettier, smarter, and better at socially interacting. I feel so insecure, like I have to hide my face to feel normal. And I feel people staring at me, and I can tell that they think I’m ugly.
My friends seem to be drifting from me this year. I feel like I’ve got so many distant friends, but no close ones
They try and get home early, and it seems so special whenever they’re both home. They work a lot, and they really like their jobs. In fact, their jobs are actually really good.
They get well-paided, they have really nice offices, their co-workers are also really nice. But they don’t have time. They’re gone most of the day, and we almost never get to spend time together as a family. Whenever they’re home, something always goes wrong. I want to see them, but I feel like I don’t know them at all.
Do you ever feel so much guilt and sadness at the same time when you do something without realizing you hurt your parent’s feelings, or you made them kinda sad?
It puts me in so much pain to see my parents sad, even though they aren’t super close. Like today, my mom and I were frosting a cake (so happy to spend some time with her) and I put on sprinkles afterwards. She looked behind her should and I could kinda tell that she didn’t like them that much, but she didn’t tell me, because I probably would’ve felt kinda sad if she did.
Welp, I saw the look in her eyes and felt like I needed to cripple up and cry.
Everyone makes others sad sometimes.
Accepting that you're not perfect is the first step to actually bettering yourself.
I didn't like myself either growing up. I wanted to please everyone, but not many people liked me. I was so shy and socially awkward. I hated the way I was.
But you need to throw out that fake image others have created around you. If they're saying you need to be prettier, you need to be funnier, throw that out. Accept yourself and learn to like yourself for everything that makes you you. And then you can set goals for yourself and work towards achieving those goals. And they can be small goals, little ones everyday. But you can only achieve those goals if YOU want to. If you want to be kinder, that's your choice. If you want to be more considerate, that's your choice. Figure out what you like, and embrace that. Don't try to change who you are just to make other people happy. (Do be mindful though of how your actions affect other people.) And don't be afraid to try new things. Try saying yes more. You're still growing, so how you see yourself now is not the person you are always going to be.
Honestly, one of the most attractive things that I've noticed in people is confidence. Even if you're different or not as pretty, confidence just looks good. (Arrogance does NOT though so don't get the two mixed up!) Being comfortable with yourself and expressing yourself however is easiest to you will naturally draw people to you. It takes a leap of faith, but practice makes perfect. Put yourself out of your comfort zone. Talk to that person you've been scared to talk to. Introduce yourself to someone you think you can get along with. And just practice until you're more comfortable. I mean confidence for me has always kind of started as a fake it till you make it kind of thing. At least act confident even if you don't feel it.
Another thing about looks bc I’m self conscious XD
Sometimes people around me tell me that I’m super pretty. Actually, most people do. But then I look at myself and I seriously wonder if they see someone different when they looks at me.
It’s all really confusing
As much as I want them on, I know I can’t demand them or force them to talk to me. Because it’s just, not right? So I try to wait, without pushing anyone to chat with me.
