I think I've been too attached and an a--hole to a very good friend of mine unintentionally but I'm too scared that if I bring it up that I might lose them.
It's just I've been so stressed and my brain is in knots and I don't think because thinking is stress so then I say something that can come off as being rude and I feel bad about it for hours even though I know my intent wasn't to be rude and I don't want to stress them out by telling them every thing that is wrong. Like I told them a tad but then I changed the subject because I was uncomfortable
I honestly dont deserve them they can do so much better but I dont want to lose them because I can barely stop texting them because they're just so great
I have a lot of trouble when it comes to attachment
I'm so scared of being alone I go to bed at 9pm the latest so I don't have to be by myself when everyone wants to just chill out and have time to themselves
It's hard for me to even listen to music for long periods of time because I'm by myself
And when I get stressed I tend to isolate myself in my room but text people which makes everything worse