New thread, new me.

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Thread Topic: New thread, new me.

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    boss_baby Newbie
    PAIGE I WOULD LIKE ANSWERS
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    boss_baby Newbie
    actually page be quiet
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    Paige_ Senior
    I haven't washed any of my clothes in a month, the only clean things I have left is clothes I got for Christmas. I used all of the hot water in the shower trying to condition and detangle my hair because it became so knotted. It looks like a bomb went off in my room because everything is on the floor. Today I felt accomplished because I managed to brush my teeth after being constantly told to brush them. I eat so much at one time that my mouth starts to hurt, and I still continue to eat after that point because it makes me happy for five seconds after I eat something. I either get strong urges to break things that I hold dear to me or I just break down crying twice a day. I'm not grounded, but I am aware of my feelings, I just don't really feel them unless they're extremely intense. When I tried to explain this to my med person she insisted that I don't understand how feelings work and I wanted to punch her in the face I was so frustrated with her. The school isn't getting what I'm trying to say to them. I have a 44 in at least two classes, and all of the teachers are telling my grandma that I'm doing well in school. People are still throwing s--- at me during class, and at this point I can't tell the difference between whether my mind is telling me they're laughing at me or if they actually are. I can't pay attention during class because of it, and it's even worse in the hallways. I have to bottle everything inside because if I talk about one problem one time everyone calls me 'angsty' and they all ignore me. It honestly feels like my friends don't like me or they don't think I'm good enough to be a close friend of theirs so they can just ignore anything I say that isn't humorous or shows even the slightest shred of vulnerability. My insecurity is skyrocketing. This has been happening every year since 8th grade. I feel really good, and then everything hits the fan.
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    Paige_ Senior
    I meant I'm angy

    Honestly bro idk what I'm doing
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    S_E_ Senior
    I'm sorry you feel this way, I kinda get the sentiment.

    Never feel bad for sharing your emotions. You have the right to express yourself and if people are being cruel to you that reflects on them.
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    Paige_ Senior
    Thank you, I really appreciate it
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    Paige_ Senior
    Love being lied to
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    Paige_ Senior
    I knew it
    I f---ing knew it
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    Paige_ Senior
    Like how do you expect me to be able to sleep soundly and act okay after finding out that my mom has had cancer since August? I don't care if it's 'only radiation' and 'it's not going to kill her', that's not the f---ing point
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    Paige_ Senior
    Thanks 2020
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    Paige_ Senior
    I got to eat some good cookies tho
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    Paige_ Senior
    Imma try to sleep again
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    boss_baby Newbie
    OK PAGE
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    boss_baby Newbie
    page
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    Paige_ Senior
    Yes bby

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