I am a loser who
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Thread Topic: I am a loser who
When they said you’ll need a more thorough test done in a lab where they have the required equipment
I felt my wallet thin
I’ve had bloodwork done 2 times I’ve gotten those stupidly priced expensive allergy tests done to double check and they all came out fine because I’m not allergic to anything since I guess my genes have at least that awesome thing about them
So now I have to get like actual hospital stuff done???
Okay but with what money I only have a small small small amount left And Nathaniel still has not payed me back yet
I also need to keep my grades up at school so I can maintain my scholarship which is kind of difficult to do when you feel like you’re in pain 24 hours a day unless you’re asleep
On the plus side
I look a lot older than I did in the beginning of the year and I think I actually look my age now
So that combined with my height = actually university looking person
Well except for my weight
Look at me being a narcissist in the middle of this extremely important health topic
Is this what we call finding the silver lining
Nah it’s called being a chad.
The point is now that I am the definition of the 7/11 crack head that comes in at 3 in the morning
I want to go back in time and beat up younger me for taking the food on the table for granted
I want to go back in time to stop myself from getting into college but also I need college to get a degree but at the same time what if my degree is useless by the time I graduate because AI is going to be able to do it but If I wasn’t in college right now I would still have all my money and I wouldn’t have to worry about debt and I would be able to leave and just emigrate to Mexico.
That’s right, Mexico.
Despite the high crime rates reported in certain areas, Nathaniel and I have been searching and it turns out there are lesser known places where the crime rate is low.
Before he spiraled out of control, Nat had ~10k saved up. If we combined what we both had we would have had enough for what I had planned
If we had brought a third person along, we would have more than enough
The problem from there would be our jobs there
I was thinking getting a minor in English (is that a thing?) what’s it called where you get two degrees at once? Point is I would use that to hopefully get a job over there teaching English
Because despite my horrible run on sentences and jumbled up paragraphs on here
I kind of am actually able to do English correctly when I need to
I have a specific place set to move once I’m done with school and everything gets approved
LMAO wasn’t I complaining a couple weeks ago about how I couldn’t correctly comprehend a simple company email because of my medication
I’m so f---ed
Okay but the whole gist of things is that once graduation I have a plan Bc at the rate I’m going I highly doubt I’ll pass the required exams for the military and that really sucks because ever since I was 13 I wanted to be in the military
I wonder how my dad is doing. I wonder if I tell him about my plan will he support me
What if he helps me just so that I can be away from him for good so he can have a second chance with my Half sibling.
But if I leave I doubt I’ll ever see my mom again
I literally spent a year in that city roaming clubs and tourist areas to see if I could see her but I couldn’t. It’s really disappointing to see that a university graduate like her went to waste all over a guy like my dad who isn’t worth s---
:( I miss my mom. If you have a mom and you guys have a good/ average relationship with her, take care of them. Because I don’t have mine and I can’t tell you how much I regret not being a good offspring to them. Even with all her flaws, I’m not perfect either . I know how difficult things were for her at that time now.
Jesus f--- this whole thread page is so dramatic let’s switch this mood up so that we don’t get cut by accident with all this edge
There’s this tiktok account of this girl who is a horse and seeing her thrive in her pony play gives me life
Okay but who’s the weirder one here
The one that uploads the pony content
The one that actually watches it
I also found some more songs to ad to my playlist of TT songs
It’s cold outside
I think I found my next tattoo design for when I have money
A Kermit the frog tattoo Bc that little dude is my spirit animal
How about instead of giggling and calling them a poser we help them build a board that’s actually safe
Maybe they like skating without a grip Bc they know they f--- shoes up
They look like a beginner Bc their board is still fresh
should I go up to them and introduce myself
I have a new friend
That makes 108 contacts on my phone yeeyee
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