You know what..
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Thread Topic: You know what..
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f--- it.
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what. what are you mad about.
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He is mad because the propulsion gel in aperture laboratories nearly killed him and broke his portal gun
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I'm not mad. Sorry if I came off that way. I'm just tired. I'm tired of fighting, tired of arguing, tired of the ever increasing number of reasons why I'm wrong and a terrible person.
And I'm tired of me. So I say f--- it.
I've done good and I've done bad on here. But I always kept the mindset that I'd leave when no one wanted me here anymore.
Well at this point people will crawl out of the woodwork to tell me they like me being here, but saying they like me is easy. Sticking around and showing it is hard.
I'm done. I'm out. I give up.
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wait............wut? Dude I think his theory on Warp Drive went horribly wrong and tore a hole in subspace.
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late post and if youre out then whats the point of this site.
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Have fun, then.
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Well. i feel that if you think that this is the way bob then go on. if you feel that no more can come from this site go ahead, just remember. someone, somewhere ... cares.
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D:
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if this is about that thread in d&r i thought we were just having a debate
like
ya know
you used to in religion -
I'm going to try and clarify things as best I can right now. If I start rambling or stop making sense, please bear with me; I'm not exactly taking the time to go back through and revise this.
My biggest fear in life is being seen as the villain. The idea of people expecting the worst from me or categorizing me as a hateful person is absolutely terrifying. Call it vain if you want, but I've just spilled my deepest fear on a public forum, so what more can you do to me?
With that being said, it seems like the only way I can carry on a conversation with anyone on here anymore is to debate. This isn't by choice and I don't exactly hate it. Demographic of this site are younger teenagers and women. We don't have much in common, so debate is an equal part topic. There's nothing wrong with that.
In the D&R forum, go back and read my posts. Until page 3, all I did was state how I see things, and explain that it didn't make sense to me. THAT ENTIRE TIME I was being met with people being offended that I disagreed and using the exact same circular reasoning to try and explain why I was wrong. Even when I explained that the reasoning they were using didn't make sense, they continued with the same point. I stated this and went unheeded. Then by page 4 people were asking why I was offended and the conversation ended with snide remarks towards me for being fed up with people getting mad at me for not supporting a system that didn't make sense to me.
This is the first debate I was in.
Then ontop of this, I am in another debate in the study, started today on my behalf where I tried to relate back to what I said previously about the system being abused and misused, at which point I was told my opinion was acceptable, but that it didn't matter because I "took a s---" on other people. I'm paraphrasing of course.
Couple this with the fact that I never talk with any of you unless it's debate and in fact have never had a pleasant conversation with some of you and it creates this system of hostility and an environment of tension.
I'm turning into the website's badguy and I don't like it. People have always liked me because I was blunt and honest and stood up for what I felt; but anymore it seems to be those very same reasons that are making people disgusted with me.
And I've got to say, it terrifies me. -
Well people don't agree with me very often and most of the time when I say something about something I'm interested in, they basically are sitting there confused, saying "Wait, the the hell what was that???" and paraphrasing, I say, " well I guess that's another thing to cross off of the list of things to see if I'm alone on, and I guess I am."
I don't know why it is, but people of this world are just, not on my side. If they're not my enemy, they either don't know, or don't care that I exist. There are few exceptions, but I'm sure I could count them, if not on both hands, just one.
Now, yesterday, I got a reminder. I got a reminder that this life is not all in my head; some kind of really long dream/nightmare, whichever it's more like. I got a reminder that some people do love me. Some people do care; but that doesn't change the fact that most people just plain don't give a s---. If I've messed up in any way when I was young and people didn't know me as well, or that they don't care and they never have or will, I don't know. All I have learned is that this is more of a cruel world than what I believed when I was five. So much has happened since fifth grade: my first year of going to school, before I was homeschooled, and my mom was right; there are things she couldn't have possibly have taught me. cruelty, love. hate, care. working and not. lazy, fast. all opposites my mom could have never taught me.
But you know what? This is MY life, not theirs. This is MY time, not theirs. These are MY thoughts, not theirs. And if had it my way, This world would be a completely different; better. It would be a better planet, where there would be no laughing at people; only with them. And that's only the beginning, but I don't have it my way, and I have to subside to cruel civilization that this is.
I know people think I'm crazy, I know people think I'm dumb. I know people think that I'm some little piece of s---, but I don't care, and I won't let that bring me down.
And yes, Bob, it looks like I copied you by writing a long speech, but really, I've wanted to do this for a long time, and now I can finally get this onto something other than my own thoughts.
And, by the way, I'm going to save this. I'm going to copy paste this into a wordpad document, and keep this so I will not have to do this again next time. -
dude, i get what your trying to say. and there is a simple solution, that, for some reason, people say 'its too hard' and/or just never think to do:
ignore them.
why is this so difficult to people? i dont know, but i bet they dont either. because it isnt. just ignore those who see you as 'the villain' because, and i think i speak for all of us who arnt complete nut heads, your a great person. and hell, if you want a conversation, ill talk to ya. i just find it hard to do sometimes either because im busy with other things or you are talking with others and i dont feel like i need to intrude unless needed.
and if you leave, i can respect that. thats your call to make, and nobody should judge you for it.
and if you stay, stick around longer, ect... well, that will make alot of us sensible people happy that we still have you in our community. im always interested in what you posted when i see you posted something in the 'recent posts, side bar because your intresting. and not in a bad way. you seem fun, and can write a damn good story about some warhammer 40K.
in the end, i just hope your willing to stick around GTQ a little longer, and if you want,have a conversation rather than another debate. -
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quote is me, by the way XD didnt notice i was in that account until it was too late.
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