People are noticing somethings wrong with me.
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Thread Topic: People are noticing somethings wrong with me.
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I haven't been eating, I don't really speak during class anymore, I shy away when people want to talk to me, I look sick, and I haven't been sleeping. I always lie and say I'm fine, I even tell my parents that I'm fine. I put on a fake smile everyday, just to pretend everything is fine, that my mind isn't falling to pieces and I'm not going crazy. I come on here and try to stay as happy as possible so I don't worry my friends. My nightmares won't go away, I've tried everything so I stopped sleeping. Someone said I was fat so...I stopped eating. This girl that hates that I'm smart picks at me, picks at every flaw I have so I stop speaking in class. My teachers are even worried about me. Everyone thinks they know me, but they don't. They don't see how...broken I am. How I'm not all there. But I'll just keep hiding behind my fake smiles. I'll keep saying I'm fine, that nothing is bothering me. That I'm not...falling apart at the stitches of my mind. That I don't lock every emotion away that I feel that makes me an empty shell of a person.
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*hug*
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*is hugged* hm...
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"People are noticing something's wrong with me."
"They don't see how...broken I am."
Sweetheart, they can't notice something and then not see what's wrong.. I'm sure everyone's aware of what you're doing, seeing as you said in the title they did. ._. -
As I explained in the first thing, they noticed I don't eat, that I'm not talking anymore, I look sick, I haven't slept. I don't show people that I'm broken because then people at that f---ing school have another goddamn thing to hold against me.
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Thanks, thanks for showing how much you care Dark. Thanks.
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*hugs* I'm sorry. I hope things get better for you
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I don't have anything to say, to be honest. I don't really know how to give you advice. I'm sorry I can't be the person you lean on.
If you want my honest opinion on this, I don't think you can get all of that broken because of what idiots say. I wouldn't stop eating because someone said I'm fat. You need to ignore them and just.. I dunno. Stop acting like it's all your fault when it's not. Stop acting like I'm ignoring you when I'm not. -
I don't lean on you. The person I lean in acts like she doesn't care anymore, like I'm that girl she became friends with because she took pity on me.
Hon, it's hard not to listen to them anymore. I don't know how to stop acting like it's my fault, when it got drilled into my head. Ignoring me? I feel like you can't stand me. I feel like Andi hates me and doesn't want to talk to me. I miss you both yet you disappear to the stage when I actually need help. I'm there for you two. -
Look, don't deprive your body of what it needs. If you can't bring yourself to do it for you, do it for me. How would Sunneh feel about that?
And don't let dumb b----es take away your worth. What they say is momentary and stupid. You have to help yourself, since you're the only person you'll always be stuck with. Treat yourself well. -
Wait, who's that..? I'm now lost..
I manage to ignore people. It's getting to the end of the year, I think you can ignore them. But that's just me, so I guess it won't apply to you. Sometimes I honestly can't stand you when you act like this- even though I know it's not your fault. I'm sorry I can't really deal with depression. If you want, you can stop being there.. ._. -
I can't say much more that..I'm sorry..I care but, to be honest, I'm speechless.
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Maru wouldn't like it...mom is forcing me to eat so...
I'll try to...
My friend Ally. Sadly...I don't think she really cares anymore.
I'm sorry? I don't forget things people say to me. It's hard for me to forget. I'm sorry my depression bothers you that much. I'm sorry I can't be brave, I'm sorry I'm a sucky ass friend. I can't Jillian. I can't, it goes against my nature. -
hey hi Sunneh here saying that I have very negative feelings about that
Izzy, take care of yourself. You're more important than anyone who would dedicate any of their time to making you feel inadequate. Don't punish yourself for their stupidity. -
Well, you should try to talk to her about it, then.
You don't have to forget. Just try to ignore it. It's not your depression that bothers me, but the way you act about it. I can't begin to explain in words how weird you act and it makes me feel awkward. Then don't.
I should leave now, before I hurt your feelings.
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