What ND experiences did you have that made you go
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Thread Topic: What ND experiences did you have that made you go
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Feel free to post any ND or similar stories/experiences you have. I just wanted to connect with some users over ND experiences.
For me, it was always labeling myself as a "social chameleon" as a kid and not realizing that that was just masking until I was like 20. -
I've always labeled myself as a loner alot of the time sense I have had lots of mental abuse in the past so now I like being alone a lot besides I find it peaceful and beneficial for me anyways.
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So I did this thing up until 8th grade, where every time I ate McDonald's, I would peel the breading off of each nugget, eat all the breading, then eat the chicken nuggets, keeping my fries for last, and what I'd do is I'd measure each individual fry in pairs of 2-4, and eat the smaller fries. The biggest fry in the group would move on, and I did this until at the end, I would eat the longest fry in the whole thing they gave me. And I always ate it this way. I always put the fries next to each other, because I had to have the longest fry last. I thought "best for last" and since it has the most fry, ig it was the best.
But I brought this up in 8th grade to some friends because I thought it was a relatable thing everyone did. I found out the hard way it was not normal, bc they all thought I was joking and laughed at me. 💀 I asked them how they ate their fries, and they laughed again. But now I eat fries normally bc I taught myself not to organize my food unless I'm in private 💀💀 -
I always referred to myself as the lone wolf, and I proceeded to act like an animal, as a coping mechanism. It took me a little to realize, wait, the hell am I doing? Meowing, barking, growling and hissing aren't normal. I got bullied, and still do, but I try to keep from acting like an animal in public.
I often daydream too. This got me bullied, because I'd talk about my daydreams and people would think I was weird. -
I think this is more of a trauma/domestic abuse story but I link this to my mental illnesses in my mind so here goes: when I was a kid I was afraid to speak to people or in class. why? because every now and then I would casually say really f---ed up things about my feelings and my home life. I didn't mean to. I always thought they were normal. but they would send me to the counselor, for reasons that are very obvious to me now. back then I was afraid to go to the counselor, because when I did, I got in trouble at home. my mom once flat out told me that if I kept going, they were going to take me out of the home, and was that what I wanted? to grow up without my family? it never occurred to me when I was a kid that choosing not to speak because I was scared I'd accidentally let something slip that got me taken from my family wasn't normal. I knew I was always sad and trying to escape and thinking about dying or running away, but I assumed everyone did. sorry to anyone that read this.
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Getting a case of the "shakies" in a public area. It helps me get my extra energy out, and it usually happens when I'm nervous/excited and more commonly when I'm sitting down. I shake my hands like jazz hands rapidly and stomp my feet a lot. People look at me weird when I do it, but I can't control it.
On a deeper level: With ADHD, I can't do things I want to do. Or I forget things more than any other human being. Being understimulated feels like depression, and overstimulation feels like anxiety. I can never prioritize. Literally taking care of myself is hard. I'm slowly trying to change my ways, but I get lazy and can't stick to a routine even though I know I need structure. -
honestly too many to count
everyone knew I was "different" growing up
I guess I didn't truly grasp how different I was until in elementary school, I was trying to play with a group of kids. a girl I really wanted to be friends with smiled and told me to come close, and I was excited thinking I was being included in some cool secret. she acted like she was going to whisper something to me but instead, she screamed at full volume, "NOBODY LIKES YOU" in my ear and I ran off crying. I didn't even know I was annoying everyone LOL it was humiliating.
from that day on I became conscious of how weird I was. in fact I got called weird a lot. and I didn't really understand why, I didn't know why I acted the way I did. now I know it was autism <3 thanks autism. and also OCD but that didn't play as much into the social aspects -
what's ND
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It's an abbreviation for nuerodivergent.
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