Fire in the Dark
Thread Topic: Fire in the Dark
What I said was horrible. My mother does love me. All that s**t was a lie. She cared about me all along. And I wish I had been here instead.
This life is so much better. I'm so much happier. I can be myself and don't have to worry about anything.
F**k it. I'm not gonna play these games with you. I'm Alex now. Not Anna. No, Alex. F**king respect that!! I have changed my name, and my life. So stop calling me by my dead name and accept that I'm different now.
Dream_wastaken NewbieOh, god damn. I'm so nervous....
Tuesday is the first day of school. I'm waiting for a dress, which hopefully comes tomorrow, or I might wear a different one. Oh god, I'm so nervous!!
Anxious rn. Why? Idk. How? Idk. God.... I'm so f**king anxious......
Anxiety attack. Just because Chrome isn't working on my phone and I feel like I'm gonna lose Blizz, and that can't happen. I'm not ready to let go, for the second time. I can't do it, not so soon after losing Ran. I can't deal with the anxiety and panic. I can't do this. A panic attack means I won't focus as well as I should and that I'm gonna be really fidgety and restless. I can't f**king lose Blizz, I just can't. Ran was first and that was painful. Now I feel like it's Blizz, which is gonna rub salt in the wound. I haven't gotten over Ran yet, and Blizz still has contact, but if I lose them, I lose all contact with Ran. I can't do this. Not today.
If Ran comes back for school, on their computer...
Maybe Ran and I could revive what once was? I mean, friend wise. Maybe we could be friends again.
Calm down, calm down. All will be well. Unless you panic.
They're okay. I guess. Am I? No. Are they really? Probably not.
Six mental people.
Why do we have to rage? We don't need this pain or suffering.
We lost all we care about. Everyone is pulling away. Or so it seems with these raging nightmares.
You are a problem.
You are a screw up
You are a burden.
Words of cruelty and horror
Why do we put ourselves down?
Loud intense scream, please come out
My mental state continues to decrease. Went from Don to Curo to Alex to Anna, then back to Don, then down to Zumae, then to Devin. What fun...
Who am I now? Devin? Don? A mix of the two?
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