My Venting Thread

Thread Topic: My Venting Thread

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    Ethel Advanced
    Shattered. Broken. Torn apart.
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    Ethel Advanced
    Right now, I really don't see the reason for trying,
    or for talking,
    or for breathing.
    I'm just done.
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    Ethel Advanced
    I feel hated.

    I want to die...

    I clearly wasn't born to feel loved, or wanted.
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    Hate my life
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    Ethel Advanced
    Of course you don't. If you did, you wouldn't leave so soon. Or at least give us somewhere to contact you. I wouldn't be that cruel. But, why am I not surprised. Maybe because you've been shutting out our opinions on the thought of you leaving, and have been continuously talking about it. Which really hurts.

    No offense, but... I feel really hurt and betrayed by this. Maybe I should start avoiding/ignoring Cats17 to avoid hurting both her and I.
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    LordDark Advanced
    I'm lacking context, but I would like to butt in and point out that Cat's message is full of guilt tripping. They are trying to make you feel bad (guilty) for a decision you're trying to make. Don't let them have that power over you.
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    Ethel Advanced
    I know she was trying to guilt-trip me, but I really do feel guilty.

    I just wanted to let them know, so it won't be so sudden..

    Thank you, Dark. :3
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    LordDark Advanced
    The choice to leave is ultimately up to you. I have come and gone from the site a few times. It can be liberating to leave it behind.

    However, I will say, if you value the friendships here, it may be worth it to stick around. As long as you communicate with your friends and work together to have a healthy friendship, it's worth it.

    I personally regret cutting my friends off out of a fear that they'd turn on me or hurt me. It's much better to stick it out rather than leaving them behind and listening to your internal paranoia.
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    Ethel Advanced
    Thank you so much :'D

    I love all my friends on here, but sometimes I feel as if they only use me, or are trying to hurt my mental health even more.

    I have trust issues, which has led me to believe nobody shoyld be trusted. At all times, I keep my guard up, even if I don't need to.

    I know I'm not the only one, though. :3
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    LordDark Advanced
    Sometimes, those feelings are valid. This site especially seems to harbor both good-willed and ill-willed people. The only thing you can do is reach out to your friends and talk to them about it.

    The ones who care will be patient and understanding; they'll be willing to talk about the friendship and come up with ways you guys can mutually benefit each other. Those are the people worth your trust.
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    Ethel Advanced
    Thank you so much...

    Do I just ask "Are you a traitor"?
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    LordDark Advanced
    Haha, no! But you can ask questions like:

    What are your long-term goals for our friendship?

    Do you think we could do x, y, or z (replace xyz with things that would reassure you that you guys are friends)?
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    Ethel Advanced
    Thank you so much! :'3

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