When I was 8 years old, I was the happiest, brightest, most optimistic kid out there. But when I hit age 9, my sadness increased more than I could have ever imagined. I became more grouchy, more introverted, more dark, and more hostile... Whenever my sister tries to talk to me, all I do is glare at her.
It's a different story with my mother and step father. I love them to pieces. I've never seen my real father as what he is, but instead, I saw him as a stranger. I see my step father as my real.
My siblings, I dislike them a lot. The sibling I'm living with at the moment (a middle sister) is a total drama queen. I do not like drama queens at all.
She always tells me I don't have depression, or she says she's so kind and I'm so rude, when in reality, she is the rudest, most annoying, most sassy person I have ever met.
Not trying to change topic here... Okay, anyways..
I see myself as a coldhearted loner, because that's what she always says I am.
Whenever we speak to eachother, it always ends up an arguement.
That's why whenever she tries to talk to me, I do nothing but ignore her.
I'm at a point where I almost hate her.
I feel ashamed of myself. The people who were once my friends, I now ignore. I cower away from the social life in fear I'll be judged and criticised.