I don't know what I want at this point. I feel more empty. Like all the feelings I have are draining out. The good and the bad. I feel like I want to do it again. I know I shouldn't, I know it's bad, but I'm having alot of trouble caring that it's bad.
i understand how you’re feeling. when i start feeling this way, i try as much as i can to clear my mind, do something else to entertain me, something that will make me feel relaxed or happy. this could be playing your favorite, listening to your favorite song, watching your favorite movie. try remembering the things in life that make you want to be here, all of those whom you hold close.
if you’d like, you can even journal your thoughts. sometimes you feel a sense of relief when you’re just able to let everything out, like you’re spilling your soul.
if you don’t think any of these idea will help you, it’s okay. there are plenty of methods, you just have to commit to wanting to make yourself feel emotionally healthy.
The only people I value are on a quiz site. I don't have the freedom to do even some of the simplest things. I'm treated like a child. The only part of my life I enjoy is talking to people from here. This f---ing website and the people on it are the only thing keeping me going. If I didn't know there were people here who care about me I would have offed myself. I literally sat down and thought of reasons not to kill myself and the only one I could come up was "gtq people would be sad if they found out" I'm falling apart. I'm getting emotionally weaker. I don't think Im gonna be ok.
That's probably an incoherent ramble but I'm not going to clean it or proof read
Woah man, f--- this aint good.
Youre not alone, please know that bro. And sometimes even a small group of people on a site that care for u and that u care about is all you need at a given time. As long as it helps you grow as a person it doesnt matter what form of socialization it is bro. Or hobby. Or interest. Anything really. Please promise us u will try hard to take it easy the rest of this night(early morning)
Tomorrow can be a new and better day, you never know.
Im gonna sleep myself, need to wake up early