When I first came here, it took two whole weeks before anyone even noticed I was here. I was edgy and protective; I didn’t want to or know how to let anyone in. Over time, I learned to open up and let people into my broken little world despite the fact that I had nothing left to give. I gave all that I could to everyone I met. It got to the point where all I really wanted was to please the people I’d met in hopes that they wouldn’t leave me as everyone else I’ve known did. However, I’ve come to terms with the fact that maybe I haven’t changed. Maybe I should stop trying to be something more for the sake of everyone. Because when I first came here, I wasn’t this sheepish girl who cared too much and let people walk all over her; I wasn’t the girl who cried in her own thread for not knowing anyone. So for me, what Raiden said TOTALLY applies…
"This is my normal. My nature.”
--Raiden (MGS)
The Twilight Princess can die. I'll be here, now. And as of today, my main account is Raiden Ripper (which is actually supposed to be "Raiden/Ripper"). And DON'T CALL ME CLARA ANYMORE! I RESENT THE NAME.
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I really don't know who I can talk to. I don't trust myself not to say something stupid or hurtful. It's just my horrible nature that I'm like this.
I could also be paranoid that I'll end up all alone. I don't like the thought of people leaving me. So it's best not to engage so I don't have to worry about it.
I'll go by Raiden. The name goes either gender, so I'm good with it.
I'm not giving out my real name again, because in retrospect, it was a stupid idea. I hate my name, anyway.
I appreciate it. I'm not really able to keep conversation today, though. I think I might just ramble in here. Also, my mom's helicoptering me today, so that's why I've been disappearing off.
