do tbhs on me

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Thread Topic: do tbhs on me

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    1714 Hot Shot
    I desperately need validation
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    dragonsfire Experienced
    Honestly, I don't know a lot about you. The first two times I tried to talk to you, you were basically telling me to get out of your thread, so I did. But a few days ago we did have a conversation about green beans and gardening, which was nice. I know you're really good at art, and also have a passion for gore. That's about it.
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    1714 Hot Shot
    LMFAOOOO I LOVE YOU
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    Faceless Knight Advanced
    being honest from what i can see you're great at art but obnoxious, rude, hypocritical, inconsiderate, and very very immature.
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    zilla Advanced
    Are you sure you want completely honest TBHs?
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    1714 Hot Shot
    based

    yes zilla 😰
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    Chainsaw Novice
    tbh you should try therapy or at least some introspection i think it could help you a lot. I like you when you're not being a dick but it seems like dick is your default mode.
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    zilla Advanced
    Well, I remember you being alot cooler back in the day. Less rebel more fun. Now, I don't know. You seem obsessed with gore, and each their own. But your fighting the very people that you used have cool and calm conversations with. Currently, I don't view you in a positive light
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    1714 Hot Shot
    I've been in therapy for about around 2 years, and I do think about a lot of things (when my mind warrants it). Just because I still continue to choose to be a prick sometimes doesn't mean by brain is completely shut off. I thought you would have more hope for my tiny sped mind :')
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    Chainsaw Novice
    Pls keep working towards being a better you. Not for the people you're around but for you.
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    1714 Hot Shot
    Zilla, I can understand why you still hold a past ideal version of me, but I definitely was less fun and more annoying. Now I barely have normal conversations with people because I grew up in real life; the thing is that allowing people into your own world won't leave you unscathed, it's actually a danger. I've developed more of a paranoid mindset because if you didn't know, I left this place in 2016; I never came back until recently I joined the Discord and promptly left. During those years when I wasn't around, a lot of changes to my life happened and I became heavily immersed into an entirely different community that had left me in mental shambles because of how much of an echo chamber it was, it mimicked and still mimicks an asylum. The people I'm strictly not in close relationships with is partly because of my past characterization on the forums and because they're unwilling to want to accept me, that is just the bottom line. You see how quick The Coldest Sun stopped talking to me because I held a personal belief, and instead of fully interacting with me and wanting to understand the reasoning of why I hold those beliefs, they choose to not talk to me again. One of the things you have to learn is that don't ever get too comfortable and to be wary of everyone, because most people truly do not care about your wellbeing in depth. If I was around normal people who absorbed social cues, they would understand that a lot of the ridiculous things I tend to say and my oppositional behavior is a near cry for help and attention, and there is nothing malicious behind it. People are more interesting of having a collective around them that appeals to their own wants and identity, to appease their fragile egos, and to evade time, which we are desperately running out of. I have never come across a single honest person in my life and if I ever met one they would finally tell me that things won't be alright and this is how the world really is, and truth is defeating.
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    1714 Hot Shot
    Chainsaw, I know, but therapy isn't working. I don't know how to work upon myself because I don't really know who I am.
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    WolfLove2 Junior
    I used to think you were a bit of butt, but I learned that you, like everyone else, have your own demons and issues to face. I think you are exceptionally smart and talented and I hope you see that in yourself soon, because you deserve to know your worth. I feel like if we kicked it in real life we could have a hell of a conversation but sometimes I feel you think on a deeper, heavier level and that is something I have always admired in friends and acquaintances.
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    WolfLove2 Junior
    ***because sometimes
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    zilla Advanced
    I've been gone too. I left seven years ago. I came back briefly four years ago. In the time I've been gone, I've lost many friends. Either I've lost contact with them or they left this world. But I still try to be civil, to at least maintain a positive outlook. The world needs some positivity.

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