I feel like everyone hates me.
I’m terrible at carrying on conversation. I just can’t come up with things to talk about. I’m sorry, I don’t mean to sound like I don’t want to talk to you; I do, I’m just not good at it. I enjoy the talks we have so much, i just don’t know how to some up with a new subject or anything like that. And if I say “yeah, I agree” or “I feel the same way” a lot, it’s because I do feel the same way, not because I don’t want to come up with anything to say, but because I cant.
I’m also terrible at eye contact. My eyes wander around the room or stare at a certain wall or something without me telling them to. Eye contact, in a way, feels wrong when I try to do it. I’m sorry, I promise I’m listening to you. It may not make sense, but I listen better when I don’t look you straight in the eyes. I barely even know where I’m looking, I just take note of what you’re speaking about. I swear I’m not trying to make it look like I don’t know you or that I’m not interested in what you’re saying. It’s just really hard for me to maintain eye contact.
Sounds like you have social anxiety.... Which we all have a little bit of. Nobody hates you, in fact, I think you're one of the most amazing GoToQuiz users, which is saying a LOT.
One tip for keeping a conversation is if they're telling you a crazy story, instead of just saying, "That crazy!" try saying something that relates to the story, like, "I can't believe she gave you an F for that!" It helps them know that you're listening to them, and that you want to hear more, which helps THEM not feel nervous, which benefits both of you.
And for eye contact, you don't have to look at their eyes, their face is generally fine. Try and notice if they were earrings, if they did anything with their hair, what color their eyes are, stuff like that.
Why do I get so anxious about my grades?
Why do my teachers say they love when their students cry about grades because “it means the students care?”
Why do I get so worked up over the littlest mistake; the smallest error?
Why do I feel like I’m not good enough if I don’t make a perfect score?
Why don’t my parents care about it?
Why do I have to?
I can’t do this anymore
Nothing’s good enough, no one understands
Everything hurts
I’m crying
No one gets it
They think they do but they don’t
They’re trying to be funny with me but it’s not working it can’t work
I have so many doubts
I’m terrible
I’m awful
I’m horrible
I’m a horrid person
I couldn’t do it today
I had to eat lunch in the library because I couldn’t deal with the cafeteria today
I have so much homework that I don’t have time to do
I need tea but I don’t have any
I just want to be calm and collected and happy
