it's stupid, really. i can't believe alex thinks like this. they're pathetic, unable to bear what anna bore so well. i really wish we could show them this pain, what is does to you. but wait, they already feel it. they're in pain now. f**king coward.
don doesn't understand. xey can't comprehend the difference in alex's behavior because of the stress. i may stay in my metaphorical coffin all the time, but i see it. that's why i originally gave them all different parts of trauma. now zumae, curo and devin dumped it all on alex and they're starting to buckle. they've lost their facade and let themself be weak.
anna lost her sense when she thought don could handle the trauma. she did order that all of us take some, but it's too much for me. i haven't been functioning at my best recently. dev's changed and it's hurt. he's different now and i want to cry about it...
zumae thinks i'm different. just realizing my sense of duty. alex is weak. curo is a general jacka**. don can't fight much longer. anna's given up and i've resigned myself to having to take the reigns. z's the one who changed. ae were never a cryer, but now ae are and i don't like it.
they don't understand the pain. dev's cruel now. really cruel. he jabbed at me more than he should have. he used to protect me, but now he lets curo be a dick to me. it's unfair...
