yeah im pretty weird. I have that two personality s--- going on. but none of those sides show up until im like reaaaal comfortable with you. a part of me hates it too. because sometimes I do think I am crazy and heartless. im that person who likes dark humor >.<".
I'm always on my guard, because of my school, and I guess it gets into the rest of my life. Dud, I don't even know who I am anymore. For the past few years, it's just a whole bunch of fight or die. And I'm not particularlly fnd of dying, so I fight. That's why I'm so glad that I'll be leaving that place in a few months.
ill get over it. Idk why I feel so guilty right now. I guess because he was actually a good worker. but his attitude and disrespect was wack. I just feel the same guilt I've felt and still felt about Sarah way back when I was still at my first job.
im petty and just ruthless and heartless and "morbid". then im gushy, nice, compassionate the next. well which one am I? I myself don't know anymore. I don't know which side of me I prefer because the dark side of me is what helps me keep going. I don't get hurt. but I also don't want feel like a monster that isn't capable of feeling anything.