I'm just going to talk to myself.
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Thread Topic: I'm just going to talk to myself.
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So, I just need some times to see what I'm saying. Don't take it personally, but if you bother reading this, get out.
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*Gets Out Of Thread*
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Me: Okay. Serena?
Serena: Here.
Me: Okay so do you think I was too harsh on Selena? I mean I was pissed with everything, but was it right to just do that?
Serena: Well. . . it's understandable, but that doesn't exactly make it right. . .
Me: I speak my mind. I'm just getting so fed up with people telling me that then getting all mad and gossipy if I do! I get in fights and it spreads like BOOM and everyone always blames me!
Serena: That's how life is. What about when you report people?
Me: The dumbass teachers blow it off as nothing. My "friends" in real life don't give a shit and my friends here will listen, but I always have that feeling that they're annoyed or if it came to me and their friend, they're not choosing me. -
Serena: :I . . . You don't know that. . .
Me: I know it and they know it too.
Serena: Just get it all out. We both know that's what you want to do.
Me: I've now been molested by both my parents and both times in front of my sister and no ones ever done anything about it. My dad is never around and when he is I don't want to be near him. My mom always squeezes my burn and calls me a fat whore. They're both so obsessed with my appearance and yet they wonder why I might want to lose weight or I cry. I've never been able to cry near them. They tell me to suck it up, but they don't know shit!
Serena: Sister?
Me: We have some good times, but she doesn't get anything either. I'm just really tired of trying to be here for my friend when they're never there for me anymore. I love to help and all, but I have issues too, a lot are worse than anyone can help with.
Serena: Anything else?
Me: I feel like I'm some sort of repair instrument. People come to me all cracked, I give advice and they act like guys. "I asked, but I'm not taking advice from anyone!" that's what they do! And then comes the time where they break and they realize I'm not pathetic and I can help, but they won't aknowledge it! Then they get better and I crack and break and they're never there. I'm just so sick of this cycle. It's not really even a cycle it's a line. It starts with an issue, not even! I give advice, to prevent something, then comes an issue due to ignoring the advice, then comes more advice, then ignoring it until it's the only thing they haven't tried, but they think they came up with it, then their stupid issue is solved thanks to ME and I get hurt? They could care more about grass. -
Me: They go all to these other sites and think they're so secret and smart. I know they're talking about me. I know -_-
Serena: Teresa, I'm sorry, but you're being too vengeful. Calm down. I know all this shit happens to you, but you're acting like Mona!
Me: ._. *Takes deep breaths* I think I'm good.
Serena: Honestly?
Me: Yes.
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I know you said not to bother reading this, but I did. And I am so very sorry this happens to you. :\
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It's not anything that I can help really. But I'm sick of just having to deal with it or wait it out because I've been stuck with it for 13 years almost.
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I don't know if it'll mean a thing to you, but I replied.
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If you need someone to talk to, you have me. :|
And hey, when you're 16 you can get away from your family. :3 -
@Selena I know you did. If my sister weren't here I would've been crying.
@Hunter Okay.
I can't. Legally they own me until I'm 18. Then I can move out, whatever. But that's five years away. -
Teresa , You Can Call The Popo's Or Child Services :)
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@Kat I've gone to the school about it. They called child services and they didn't do anything about it.
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Its what I'm doing. When I get a liscence Im driving my ass to Berkely.
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@Hunter Where's that? Anyways, I can't. I won't have a car and I'm not stealing one and they'd notice because I'm the only one who knows how to do the laundary. -_-
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Berkely is a place in California.
I'd drive you somewhere, because I'll have one. :D
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