mm, here we go again-
everyone is welcome as long as you’re respectful towards others ! ♡
as an introduction-
pls call me by my name, esmie ♡
nicknames are okay too ! they’re so sweet, i love them, so feel free to call me one!
if you have any questions, feel free to ask.
i’ll probably be venting here a lot, especially as of now, so if you’re bothered/triggered by that, then i suggest not to look here. ^-^
just wanted to add this as a disclaimer ^
i’ve decided to pick back up on writing again, especially poetry. literature was always my favorite thing in the whole world, but’s it’s like i drifted so far from it.
i don’t know about everyone else, but it’s so much more comfortable to write with an actual pen or pencil and notebook paper, such as in a journal or binder. it just feels more natural. ♡
the new journal i bought is purple, lined with pink in the inside. it has little holes, much like polka dots on the cover. i’m usually not into those designs, but i was drawn to this one. plus, it was cheap and i couldn’t resist.. <3
i think i’ll start using it, write my poetry there.
i haven’t been able to sleep again, until tonight. i fell asleep around 8:30, but woke up some time during 10:00. i fell asleep again and woke up around midnight.
i’ve been awake since then and it’s currently 5:18 am.
i don’t understand how some people can fall asleep so quickly and actually stay asleep the entire night. i’ve always had trouble sleeping though, since i was really small.
if i think about it, my threads are usually like some sort of interactive diary.
i type out my thoughts and feelings while others respond to them.
i need some form to express myself, and this is the option i chose.
no one's awake, so for now, i'm messing around on pt.
i'm trying to create a character heavily inspired by fairy kei fashion, but i think i used too many colors. either way, it's still cute n i can always create another.
i finished the moderator applications for the gc species server. hopefully, a few users will apply. i need to advertise more, which i might try later.
i’m sure heaven will be willing to help out with that.