i feel like over these past few days iv gotten a much better appreciation of living and the people i care about. iv had alot of emotional moments and iv been thinking alot about how if i would have died that night i would never be able to even talk to the people i love again and i broke down a little. i know it sounds stupidly obvious but its really not when you're in the that mindset. and also the fact that someone i care about was there for me that entire night is still bringing me to tears typing this. i dont know how to describe how much that meant to me. i refused to listen to any any of their requests to call 911 or try to throw up or anything but they were still there for me the entire night. they made sure i felt loved and cared for every moment of that night regardless of my choices. they didn't get mad at me or try to make me feel like i was hurting others or anything. they just gave me unconditional care and love. i'll never forget that.
