You're a very lovely girl, and I admire your creative spark. I believe I've told you this once before, but every piece I've ever read from you reads as a professional fantasy book. Something you'd expect to pick off of the shelves and binge for days. I am so, so envious of your ability to put vast amounts of efforts into your characters and writing, because I wish I had that level of focus still.
You desperately need to give yourself more credit in things and believe in yourself more. I know it's difficult, but it's important you start to think positive. You have a tendency to discredit yourself and make it hard to cheer you on, or find the words to reassure you. You have so much potential, and it hurts to watch you threaten yourself or your work when you have a bad day.
I also think you need to stop assuming so much. And I know that's hypocritical of me, but.. You really are doing well, as a friend. I think I speak for everyone when we say we love and appreciate you. You are the glue that brought us all together. It's not really fair to your friends for you to blame yourself when they're upset, because I truly doubt it's your fault. It only adds on to the stress and worry if people need to reassure you as they're trying to reassure themselves.
I think we're all going through rough patches, and it's important you don't blame yourself or assume the worst case scenario any time someone needs to breathe. Try to remind yourself: if someone has a problem, they will come to you about it. Don't try to overcompensate and over-plan for what ifs. Handle things when they happen.
By the way, you are SO gorgeous!!!!!!! I plan to come to you any time I need wardrobe advice. Like, holy s---, girl, you are a fashion INSPIRATION!!!
i value you alot as a friend and you're a really great person. You're kind and giving. you can be pretty rude and impulsive at times but when that happens you usually recognize that you were in the wrong later on.
I like you a lot, and I wish you weren't so sad. You're such a great, fun person, and the way you put yourself down is heartbreaking. You know that, though, and I can see you trying your best. I'm really proud of you. You've been doing so well and trying so hard. Sometimes I wonder if I'm annoying you, so I unconsciously withdraw a bit. I hope you know how much I wish I could help you.
You'll get there eventually. You're a talented writer, and very intelligent. I hope I'm there to see you blossom.
sorry if this isnt very in depth it was hard to find the words