I try, but there's no point in saying so because it doesn't appear that I do.
It's a struggle not to fall, and at some point I just give in. But you're right. You'd expect me to be the one who just wants to mess around, but it's usually the other person.
Not gonna lie thats what i have been feeling like for the past 3 weeks
When someone i have been purposely avoiding decides to break through my defences and tell me things that im sure few others know it really hurts when u realize you cant do anything
I can easily get rid of all this built up stress and pain if i could just talk to her alone somewhere that isnt at work especially cause i work for her parents
I could ask her out and take her someplace she even told me she eould make time in her schedule to spend a day with me but ye its not so simple for me
Well i could but where do we go i cant take her anywhere cause she most likely has been there already due to their lifestyle of going somewhere EVERY weekend even though i know that going to an old place with someone else is a new experience
And due to covid the places we would both like are closed
Which leaves a simple coffee which is way too public to discuss things and the other option is spend the day on the beach which annoys me cause well she regularly goes to the beach with other friends and seems to enjoy their company so im afraid that i wont make her happy or that she will regret it