And if you cant feel anything, EVERYTHING is bland and meaningless. Im only just noe learning how to feel again thanks to a good friend of mine, and i would give anything to be able to feel emotions like i could when i was little.
My mother is an absolute emotionally manipulative and abusive b----. If you show or feel any trace of emotion she will take advantage of it. So i killed off my ability to feel emotions. That was a horrible idea and now that im getting better i regret it