New thread, new me.

Thread Topic: New thread, new me.

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    NeonSpectere Junior
    We're going to try to plan something
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    I need to stop looking at her account

    It's over
    It only makes it hurt more
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    dragonsfire Novice
    Greetings!
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    Howdy
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    dragonsfire Novice
    What're you doing?
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    Sorry family stuff was going on
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    More edgy ventos don't worry I'm alright sometimes I just get a little bleh at night

    -i think I'm a tad bit of a perfectionist and it makes it hard for me to get hobbies because I get so frustrated with myself I'm on the verge of breaking something or crying like I wanted to try digital art but then after/if not even a week later I was so angry at myself bc I kept f---ing up that I stopped it all together

    -I get really insecure and frustrated and upset at myself bc I determine everything about myself based on how others seem to think of me and I think it's becoming more of an obsession bc I spend the majority of my time thinking about what other people think of me and sometimes I just get so grossed out I want to vomit. I also have a fear of people leaving me and if I see that a friend is online and didn't reply to my response/text after like two minutes I can't stop thinking about it and it stays in my head until they respond and its just duwbr jo soerhw un wbeg
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    I should get all of my gift cards and see how much I have
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    I might go
    Idk if I can hold up a convo rn
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    Dominoes keep knocking over
    But will happen when the last one falls?

    Sometimes I say cryptic s--- to my friends instead of flat out telling them what's wrong

    My false preconceptions cloud the reality of the situation. Comparing is an awful thing to do. It's even worse when it becomes a mindset.

    Why don't I say bothering me?
    It's usually wrong, and will only hurt the person.

    Going, going, going, gone.
    Gone.
    Gone.

    Sometimes I make cries for help by asking for advice "for a friend of mine"

    But I think it's pretty clear who I'm talking about.

    Even I'm effected by my toxic fumes
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    So here I am
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    I've never dug myself in a hole this deep before
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    This turned to a vent thread I guess
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    NeonSpectere Junior
    Usually I would've gotten myself out of the situation I was in
  • Oh Paige how are you!

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