I want to suffocate.
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Thread Topic: I want to suffocate.
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I dunno.
I don't want to kill myself. Well, I want to, but I know I can't, because it would hurt a lot of people and what not. And I hate that. I hate not being able to take my life into my own hands.
I just kinda wish I'd never existed in the first place. I can't help but think that would be better. I mean, where am I going, anyways? I'll never be able to handle college. I can't walk into a full classroom by myself because I know everyone is going to turn and stare at me, and I can't.
I don't want to stay here. I hate it here.
But I'm scared that I'll f--- it all up when I leave. I don't know what I want to do. I thought I wanted to write movies, but we all know that it's bulls---. I'm s---. -
Hyuga_Hinata Newbieaaawwww. It's okay. You are beautiful. I dont care what anyone says. You. Are. Beautiful.
i may not know you, but please. Don't want to die. -
I feel the same.
But trust me, no one has ever really known what they're doing. There's no manual to life. We're all the oldest and least experienced that we've ever been, all the time. I know how you feel, but there's nothing to worry about. You'll get through it. You'll figure it out, and adapt. That's what humans are best at.
And please, never believe that the world would be a better place without you existing. Never think that your existence is unimportant. There are plenty of things that the world doesn't need, but I wouldn't want to live in a world without them. You're part of that. -
Hyuga_Hinata Newbie;n;
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You've got time, honey. Don't worry so much. I doubt college is that bad, and I know it seems hard, but most places have counselors and professors that are more than happy to help you understand things along. When I went to Western for orientation, one of the things they pressed was that it's not uncommon to go into college unsure of what exactly you want to do. A lot of people will change their majors within the first year. And if you really need time off from school to think things over, don't pressure yourself to go to college right away. You won't want to wait too long, but if you feel you need a semester or a year off to work or think about what you want to do, then make use of that time off. Andi, we love you, and we understand it's hard to live in this world, but I want to see every single one of you alive and well, doing something you love in the future.
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