I'm really tired of this place.
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Thread Topic: I'm really tired of this place.
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I'm typing this more for my own sake than anything else. I'm not trying to draw attention to myself and I'm not asking for anyone to want me to stay.
I'm tired of this place. I'm tired of the lying. I'm tired of the fighting. I'm tired of the mistrust and the hate. I'm tired of he said this or she said that. I'm tired of they called me this so you should ban them.
I don't have friends on here anymore.
When I first came on I told myself that I would leave when my friends left. They started to leave after two years. I then told myself that I would leave at my three year mark. I failed that. And since then I haven't really had a reason to stay.
I log in, I fight. I moderate fights. I negotiate fights. I read about fights. And then when I break away from that and try to talk with people I find that we are so different that we have nothing to talk about. And then I leave.
At this point I don't feel like I have any reason to stay.
I would say goodbye, but the fact is that I don't know what I want to do with anything in my life. A recent turn of events in my personal life has made me really start to question everything about me. I've realized that I am changing. And while I've spent almost every waking moment of the past few months trying to reconnect with who I used to be, I think I've realized that I'm so much more than that complacent 15 year old kid. I'm 16, 17, 18 and 19 as well.
Has it really been that long?
I'm not sorry if this didn't make much sense. And if you read this I don't care if you post. The only way I'd see it is if I broke down and came back here.
I'm not saying goodbye. I already know I'm too pathetic to stay away forever. But I guess I am saying goodnight. Thank you for making me believe someone is listening. -
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.......Stay because Kish loves you
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There's me, kind of. I cared so much, I'm typing this on an xbox.
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^ Damn, that's desperation
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