I'm horrible
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Thread Topic: I'm horrible
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I intrude and question him about so many unnecessary things. I understand nothing. Not how he feels or thinks. Im horrible and selfish. Im cruel and judgmental. I criticize and voice rude, offensive things. Not once have I thought how it would affect him. All I think of is myself and my life. I call myself his daughter but show no love or empathy to his mysterious ways. I make no effort in understanding him. I criticize instead. I wish Id realized this sooner but instead I stood like a scared coward, too afraid to notice.
Now my eyes have been opened and I realize the extent to which I went to. Id dread each fathers day because Id never know what to write on the card. I couldnt think of anything positive to say so Id make things up.
Ive bottled my feelings up for so many years and attempted to pretend they didnt exist and that I didnt care. If I open my heart Im afraid it will be broken, my soul ripped out and torn in two. I will be left bare, vulnerable and severely afraid.
When he was in hospitable I didnt want to see him because it was looking reality right in the eye. Each time I saw him my emotions let loose and escaped the closed bottle. My tears would flood from my eyes and run down by wobbling chin. -
I sorry
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I sorwee Sweetie, but your not horrible, everyone has made mistake. Dont let those mistakes define you
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