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Can't you see
The pain in my eyes?
But this is me
And my life.
If you hold me close
You can hear my heart
It cries more than most
From being torn apart.
After every breath I take,
After every fight I witness,
I ask "why must I awake?"
Will I ever conquer forgiveness?
Can you ever truly
Forgive without forgetting?
I am lonely.
My life I am abandoning.
From pain I am running.
Even though these tears are streaming
I will never look back.
All in all,
I have one question to ask.
Would you still catch me if I fall?
Maybe one day you will see.
This is how I live,
And this is me.
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Fine, ignore me, I don't fucking care. It's not like I'm posting this shit for no reason, I'm posting fucking reality. This isn't a fairy tale. This is my fucking emotions.
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Struggling With Depression And Suicide
Debbie Leads
Struggling with Depression & Suicide A Personal Perspective
By Debbie Leads 8/10/03
Days of endless struggle
More hopeful pills today
Trying to appear normal
In some sort of way.
It seems that the struggle
Is always here with me
And I wouldnt be here now
If guilt would leave me be
I know theres been many
Whove had it worse than I
But that doesnt always mean
That I wouldnt say good-bye
People say I have a lot going for me
Im sorry, but I just cant see
I cant see because my worst enemy
Is not my life, but inside of me.
Always on a roller coaster,
Not much consistency
Im nothing if Im not up or down
Im nothing if just me.
Very little energy
Wanting to stay in bed
Wishing to be enthusiastic
Instead of feeling like Im made of lead.
Wanting to be excited
Wanting to care for more
But when nothing makes sense
Its hard to focus on the poor.
Cluttered mind, cluttered thinking
Its hard to keep in touch
With what is happening around me
And not to worry too much.
I feel that everybody is better than me
And that I cant do anything right.
This is how Ive felt my whole dang life
It didnt just start last night.
No confidence, no self-esteem
Everybody else is right
To speak my mind is to be a fool
So I just try to sit tight.
Any one of these problems
Would be a heavy vice
But when you have them ALL
Living seems like a roll of dice. -
Tori, calm down.
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I can't fu calm down! Everything is going fucking wrong!
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Please don't let this be because of me.
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*fucking
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Email me. It will help. Type everything that's wrong. I'm here for you and I will help you.
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How about I just say it here? Then everyone can see how messed up I really am?!
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Tori, you're not messed up.
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Tori, you are not messed up. I'm sorry if I'm not much help to you....
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You guys don't know that.
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Yes I do! I'm one of your best friends.
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Yes I do! I'm one of your best friends.
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