mac n sneeze
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Thread Topic: mac n sneeze
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it’s embarrassing to vent because after you do it suddenly there’s something different about the space between you both
i haven’t vented to anyone in a long time so she’s the first, and it was really short and nothing awfully serious, but i hate venting to other people it gives me really bad anxiety -
i appreciate her for listening
but truthfully i feel like she didn’t actually care because she was rushing me in it and that’s kinda why im getting startled -
it’s whatever
i can’t change it and it’s probs better to sleep the anxieties of things you can’t change away anyway. it’s nothing serious anywho, i didn’t say any names, i never stated anything i would regret when im dead -
i think. im proud of myself
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im getting better at maintaining friendships kinda xd
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i can make a good first impression and make a friend easy, sure, but keeping that friendship up is a huge nobel feat for me. i can’t maintain a friendship for the life of me. i was afraid of them leaving me if i got too close but now it’s just become a habit to not put in any effort into friendships even if i want the friendship
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but im getting a bit better at conversation. i can think of something funny to say in a moment now, most of the time, but sometimes i just get anxious and go quiet
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however it’s beneficial for me to learn these things. just as i took it upon myself to experiment with embarrassing myself and pushing myself out of my comfort zone to boost my confidence, i need to push myself out of my comfort zone for maintaining friendships otherwise this habit will not change
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and i have been doing that. it’s been going good. people are starting to copy what i say, and it doesn’t make me annoyed, but it makes me happy because i know what i said made them laugh. and that that’s what they look up to
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im content knowing that. it’s a sign of improvement and improvement is what im after
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maybe one day, hopefully, ill look back and cringe at what im saying now because of how much ive improved. just how i cringe at my prior posts in previous years, it’s because i grew as a person. and i hope i continue to grow because i do want to set an example for other people and live in christ’s image
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it was important for me to learn to think before i speak. im still learning it but in the past week it’s been enhanced a lot more than before
so just. before anything, if you know someone might be upset at your words (if it doesn't abide by facts), don’t say it at all -
but now rather than being approached i need to start approaching other people.
when i say i care about other people, i do. i love all people and id never wish any hate on them (at least i try not to, but sometimes i slip up), but it’s so hard to maintain a friendship because i feel like im being judged when i first enter it, therefore i procrastinate on spending time with that person, and then i just unfriend them eventually cud i don’t know what to do next
im glad ive seen this and am seeing it tho. im working on it and im doing good with working on it. i haven’t maintained a friendship yet (my goal’s to talk to someone and spend time with said person for a week), but im getting there and i will get there -
awh that was nice
wonder if she still remembers this tho xd -
I KEEP HEARING MINECRAFT MUSIC FOR NO REASON AT ALL ITS BECome submerged into my brian
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