Tremere Chantry
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Thread Topic: Tremere Chantry
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A nightmare
We were all running and there was gunfire
There was a little girl and her mother
Not to mention that boy and his family -
I have a fear of corpses
Even dead bugs
I'll let a living beetle crawl on my open palm all day but I won't go near a dead one -
Funerals are so freaky. Everyone in the same room as a corpse. I can't get used to it. I touched my dead grandmother's hand and I can't get that terror out of my head. I touched a dead body. It freaks me out.
A lot of it is just the intrusive thoughts that come with seeing corpses irl. But I also saw my gramma, the one my middle name honours, being wheeled out of the house the morning she died. Her feet looked so cold. They were blue. She had been dead since maybe 3 am and none of us knew. I was just in the other room. Next to a dead body. She was also one of the only people I could trust. One of the only people I felt safe with as a kid. Losing her was devastating. I was 12 I think. That did a number on my psyche for sure -
TOAST
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I keep thinking about something that happened in my dream, and I want to write about it, but I wonder if posting creative writing in one's own thread is considered cringy or if it would make me look dumb?
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redownloading reshade has made my game look so much better
I'm glad I actually put the effort into learning how to use it this time -
I shouldn't have let all those death videos autoplay before sleeping. Mutilated corpses often star in my nightmares and now my head is full of bad images.
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My old therapist made me make an imaginary box to lock those things in
That works somewhat
Do you guys have imaginary boxes? -
Mutilated corpses? Freaky, man. U good?
and yes, if you can call my imagination an imaginary box. Things go in and sometimes never go out. -
If I think about the contents I puke
I had to stay home from school once
That box is full of all my nightmares. The bad ones
I try not to think about them in detail but rogue images pop up every now and then
They're hard to get rid of -
I know its not easy but try to distract with funny/lighthearted topics
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sorry i wasn't refreshing the pages
I'm okay now, I appreciate you trying to help :) -
watching videos/tv helps
it's just that the intrusive thoughts cloud my head sometimes and I get sucked into a spiral of negativity
sometimes it's hard to shake myself out of
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