i have this weird feeling rn where it just feels like if i kms i'll just wake up in a better world. it feels like it wouldn't even kill me, just move me somewhere better. idk if that makes sense but it feels so certain.
it didn't feel like i would go to an afterlife it felt like killing myself would physically move me into a better situation in this same world. it was really weird but it felt so certain. like how you just know that water will come out when you turn on the faucet.
alot of people have been asking me to take care of myself and i feel kinda bad that i haven't listened. i'v been doing nothing to take care of myself physically or mentally. the only way i'v been working on taking care of myself is financially but im not getting anywhere with that