Shadow Moses Island
Thread Topic: Shadow Moses Island
But, I've proven immortal. In every situation I should have died...I survived.
I didn't want to, but I did.
I see it as a curse.
And it's so easy to dismiss when life is blissful for you.
"Life is wonderful!" they say.
No, life is a lie.
Sorry, Snake. I kind of took over your thread with this stuff.
It's no problem, but I don't like seeing you like this. It's not good.
Yeah, but what else am I left to feel?
I'm not enjoying life, and people just want me around for their own enjoyment, feels like.
At least, at home, that's what it is.
You have a point, there...
I want to quit.
More pain was heaped on me at the realization of how long it could take before anything changes.
And that's assuming things change.
I cried. cried more. didn't help. cry now.
I feel like I died, but I'm still alive, and it continues to kill me, but I won't just die already.
Saturday 3:21pm August 15, 2020
And so it comes down to this again...
Well, we'll be doing it, then.
Counting hours in the day.
Waiting for the end.
Waiting for the night.
And fear to rise again.
This is all I do on the weekends. I count every hour. Proportion my activities very specifically. I waste certain hours of the day doing certain things. I do this to occupy myself until night.
If I don't occupy myself at all times, I get destructive.
Someone give me a reason to live.
Make me feel like I matter.🥺
Just love me...
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