~Crystal's feeling thread~
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Thread Topic: ~Crystal's feeling thread~
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Why my friendship with S broke?
Partly because of the over possessive quality.
I always cared for her and loved her (as a friend of course) but I felt that I don't get treated in the same way. I know that she's friendly to everyone but I wanted her to regard me as her best and oldest friend but that didn't happen. She started ignoring me for her those new friends. I know that I'm not as much fun and lively as they are but I can't help it it's the way I am. When she made t her best friend, I was shattered (frankly speaking I still am), I cared for her very much like very very much but she chose someone over me and I felt like probably a million knives piercing my heart. It was agony. I was very very very very hurt. So hurt that I'm hurt even now. It happened late back in July I think.
So I thought to myself that if I have no place in her heart then what is the use of continuing a friendship that gives me only pain?
After so many months of deep thoughts I finally plucked up the courage and wrote in a letter that I don't want her as my friend and the reply I got hurt me very much.
I don't know how can someone say that to their friend of six years..
She said that what I wrote to her was something she wanted to tell me for a long time. I was broken.
But after a few days she wrote a mega sorry letter which was really touchy and well framed.
So I tried to forgive her. I said it's okay. But it's not. I still am hurt and I will forever be. She really hurt me with all this. I'm not in so much pain that I was back then but it still gives me a slight sensation in my heart and I don't want both of them to be best friends. It's my place, no body else deserves to be there.
But then again, do I deserve to have someone as my best friend who ignored our 6 year old friendship and trusted a one year old one?
Do I deserve to be treated like this, by someone I cared for so much?
These questions will never be answered. -
But yeah, she is my childhood friend, we are friends since standard 2 and she will always have a place in my heart, a place which no one else can hold, even if we are no longer friends.
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I know that I'm not so much fun, interesting and happy like those new friends.
Who would like to be with this out of the box girl, who only sits silently? -
Crys. :0
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Yes..?
What's with the emoticon? -
Do you have Skype?
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Nope.
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Aw. ;-;
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I feel low.
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Why would anyone be friends with someone who is so boring like me?
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I'm really sleepy, so I'm gonna go.
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My eyes burn.
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Feel better.
Have to do biology homework.
Have to write handwriting and
Have to study mathematics. -
Jeeshan has a crush.
I don't think it is me since I have a boyfriend.
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