Oh. My. f---ing. God.
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Thread Topic: Oh. My. f---ing. God.
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They're threatening to put me in long term.
Holy s---.
"Well, clearly, you need to talk to someone about it."
I don't want to go back to COPE. We tried them. It resulted in me ending up in the hospital.
TWICE.
There's no other place in town, apart from a private doctor, and that's way too expensive.
I tried reasoning.
"I just don't want to have to end up putting you in long term."
what the actual f---
I don't want to talk about a rape that happened SEVEN f---ING YEARS AGO that I've pretty much DEALT WITH MYSELF and they're just.
Uuuuu.
Of course, my dad thinks it has something to do with that bus driver.
Because a while after he was taken in, I tried to kill myself, Juli did the thing, and I ended up crying about s--- and accidentally mentioning Cody.
And of course they think the bus driver touched me, and brought up old memories, and that's why.
That's. Not. f---ing. Why.
I'm not going to do it again. I'm fine now. I swear to God, I don't need to talk to anyone. I have friends if I wanna do that. People who wont turn around and tell my parents f---ing everything.
I just.
Want.
To leave.
This.
s---ty.
House. -
I seriously can't deal with this right now.
I'm about to ask Ashley if I can go see her or call Julianna or something I swear to God.
Sunday I have church.
And Monday I have Kevyn, so I'll be out of the house then, but I'm legit going to die if I have to spend tomorrow here.
I can't do this. -
And the guilt trip about self harm.
Yeah. Okay. Do that. Cause that helps. When I'm already working at stopping myself.
You do know this isn't helping, right? Right?
You know that you're just bringing up the reasons?
This isn't doing s--- but making it worse.. -
I can't breathe.
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Andi? I know you're not okay, do you want to talk about it?
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Nope.
Nope. Nope. Nope. -
Nature Novices---ty
What is that?
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