Somebody put an opened box of tampons
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Wtf???
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"Hellos Houston. You visited my school today (February 17th, 2015). I didn't get a chance to talk to you personally, but I did want to talk to you and share my story.
I was kind of mad there was an assembly because I'm a library aid first hour and I wanted to shelf books, but I'm glad I didn't miss out. Maybe you noticed me; I came in late, and my friend Rhi and I had to sit to the side towards the front. I am blonde and wear a plaid peacoat. I'd be flattered if you remembered. Anyways, when you began to talk about Ashley and her cutting, I almost cried. You see, my mother is emotionally abusive, and I'm well aware of it. She always puts me down and is never supportive of what I love. She's always finding negatives to what I do, like drawing anime. She tells me I look fat and that I'm stupid. When I don't say I love her back to her, she often gets really mad and hits me until I do (it never leaves marks, so I couldn't prove it anyways). Once, she asked me if I wanted to live with her or my dad. I politely said I didn't want to answer, but she pulled over into a church parking lot and pinned me to the hood of the car by my hair and started threatening me. Once, she even told me she wished she put me in an orphanage.
Of course, I'm very self-aware of this and resent her, but somehow, it gets to me. I can't even take compliments anymore. She's my mother. She's supposed to know best. So I think these things are true, but at the same time, I don't. Somehow. It's confusing, and I doubt I can coherently describe these things to you.
I've tried opening up to people about it. I told my librarian. She doesn't seem to care. Neither does the counselor. Emotional abuse isn't illegal, anyways. I've even told family members, but they can't believe my mother would do those things. They love her. Like she's perfect. It's like I'm the only one who receives this treatment.
I probably am, since she's so sweet to and spoils my bratty little sister. I find it odd, since my little sister hasn't respected an adult a day in her life. And yet, my mother loves her. She hates me.
I want to get help, but I can't. I can't get her arrested. You can't prove emotional abuse.
I get so stressed. I take the razorblades from disposable razors and I slash at my thighs, making it painful to wear jeans. Of course it isn't worth it and I feel so guilty afterwards, but for that moment, I feel like everything's okay. Like a giant weight is lifted.
I sometimes go to dark places in my mind. I meltdown and want to kill myself. I've tried, but I never can. I'm not brave enough.
Sorry tha this is all over the place.
-Sarah Nelson, 8th grade, Kerr Middle School." -
I'm in pain, just like all of you. I want to be heard.
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Don't slash your thighs.
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Well it happens.
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I feel your pain, someone once told me that no matter how much you cut the pain and hurt will still be there. I didn't believe them at first I kept cutting and I still do , but when i am sitting on my bathroom floor I have time to think why am I doing this, I am better than this, I will not let there words get to me, they can't hurt me if I don't listen and it helps a little very time. I have held back on how much I cut, and what I do to not cut is be on here and talk to my friends and others too. It's hard I know but it will get better
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scarlet4ever NewbieShe's your mother and because you expect her to treat you better than other people do, it hurts when she's even worse than them. I'm sorry about your situation but cutting is not going to help. You are already hurt emotionally and psychologically, why hurt yourself physically.
I think you should try not to let your mom get you down. She probably has her own stuff to deal with and takes it out on you because you let her.
Your sister may be rude, but she is probably confident enough to prevent your mom doing that to her. -
S was just something O sent to a motivational speaker that visited our school. O.o Damn.
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' I meant what I said, but nobody ever replies to my angsty crap so wtf
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