And Here We Meet Again
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Thread Topic: And Here We Meet Again
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So yay, a venting thread
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Please don't post here
I don't know what's wrong with me, something's terribly, horribly wrong with me and no one knows. They can't see me, they can't see the thing that I am. It's so dark and cold and lonely and I don't think I can take it much longer.
I'm fine -
Everything's ok
I don't want to hurt or scare anybody, but it's just too much for me to handle alone. But then again, it hurts to see them try to help. It makes me feel guilty because I know it must be exhausting for them to see me like this. -
Just smile and one day, it'll come naturally
I hate being in pictures. I try to smile and then people say "Come on, smile! You're not trying. Try to look happy!" because I am trying but it's not enough, I'm never enough. -
Was it worth it? Did you have fun manipulating me and then trying to act like everything was okay? Does it feel good knowing that you've hurt me countless times and fooled me into trusting you? -
I swear I'm fine
You've fed me lies and empty promises to make me feel full and I'm sick of it. They've melted away and I feel hollow again. When will things change? -
I am happy and I am blessed
It's my fault, it's always my fault for everything and I've been ready to die more than once. It passes, doesn't it? Happiness comes and goes and then that terrible ocean of hurt comes to swallow me again. I'm stuck in the water, waves crashing over my head every time I try to breathe. -
I'm so tired of feeling like this. I just want peace. I'm sick of pretending all the time. -
Everything's ok, everything's ok, it has to be ok because I don't know what I'll do if it isn't
It hurts when people play with me and then throw me away. It almost hurts more when there are genuine ones who try to help me because I know that I'm draining them and I don't want to be dependent. -
For the sake of the people I care about, I should just disappear. I'm such a burden to everyone I love and I'm doing my best to help but no one cares. People move on and they'll forget me if I go. It'll be ok.
What am I saying? -
I have to stop before it consumes me
It's so selfish of me to think like this because I know what it feels like when people you love say that. I know what it's like to be scared out of your mind because you think someone you care about is dying. I've been at the frontline of the battle and only know am I really seeing the wounds from the fight. -
Please...just stay away from me before you get hurt. -
There he goes, it's funny guy Soul! Nothing's wrong with Soul, he's always joking and fooling around. He's always happy. -
I'm just so sick of myself.
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