*sigh*
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Thread Topic: *sigh*
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I don't get it. Why am I so upset. I'm feeling worse than depressed if that's even possible! Everywhere I go, no matter where it is, people are bringing me down. They're talking so rude to me and they're giving me the worst looks ever. No matter who I talk to, they start calling me weird or doing something else like that. My only 'friend' irl just walked up to me and told me she hated me and left. At school I'm getting laughed at more and more. I'm becoming I closed in my own world and everyone else seems so unreal. My step dad keeps hitting me. My mom told me to go to hell for yelling at my step dad and just everything is going wrong. I want to visit my real dad and sister but they live to far. My teachers are sending me up to the principles office for being late and missing school. I have been skipping a lot recently to do things I'm not supposed to be doing and the teachers don't know it yet they give me that look of evil. The principle wants to suspend me or possibly expell me because I got in a fight. I only got in a fight because some girl called me a b---- then punched my stomach so I defended myself. Homecoming is tomorrow and I got asked to it as, but only as a joke. The people thought that it was soooo funny because I said that Id think about it. Everything is going wrong in my life. I saw no good things so I made an attempt to come on here and act happy to convince myself that I was happy but as soon as I tried to help someone, they threw it up in my face an started acting rude about it. I have nowhere else to turn. My grandparents told me that they didn't want to speak to me until I cleaned up my act. I just... I don't know... I feel alone. And if you say "Don't feel alone, I'm with you", I mean in real life. I have no one to talk to, nowhere to just think, and no one to just be there and tell me it's okay. My world is slowly closing in, too. I want it to end. Whether I'm talking about these problems or my life, I'm not quite sure yet but I know I want something to end. I'm so weak... People are out there having such a horrible life and I'm complaining about this? If I can't handle this, will I be able to handle te real world? The answer is no, I won't be able to. So now I just want to sit here and do nothing until I find a solution. Only one solution comes to my mind after 30 minutes, but my last attempt failed. The depression enclosing me is coming faster and faster. It's affecting me both mentally and physically to where I'm just a lump. I'm in a ball most of the day, and I won't eat to much. My mind is becoming mush. I haven't spoken aloud in a couple days in fear of what new punishment I'll receive. I'm just there. I have no purpose any more...
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So much to read so i skimmed... But your purpose has yet to be found. You just need to keep standing strong. No matter what beats on you to bring you down
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I can't stay strong much longer. If everyone around me doesn't beleive in me, why should I beleive in myself?
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I believe in you
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But you don't see me. If you saw me, you wouldn't. I'm disgusting looking and I look waiflike.
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I dont care what you look like. Id still believe in you
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I look that way for a reason. It's the things I do and the choices I make. I didn't really want to admit this, but I've recently started doing drugs. Have you ever seen a druggie become successful?
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Um.... Celebrities
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I don't have talent. But thanks for believing in me *small smile*
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I will always believe in you. Want a pizza roll?
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Sure *gets a pizza roll* *stomach growls*
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Yay food
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