insomnia
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Thread Topic: insomnia
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Insomnia is a kind of torture. Because while the world is fast asleep, you're up all alone, your mind buzzing with every random thought in the universe. And sometimes the thoughts will reach a standstill, and your mind goes blank. You become more aware of the silence. And it is during this moment that you realize how alone you are.
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fallen_angel831 NewbieOk that's just depressing
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0.0 did I just stumble on something that I wasn't suppose to read?
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Do you want happiness GTQ? Do you want the secret I have used for years just to cope? It is very simple. Be happy.
Someone Cute isn't interested? Be happy. Cat dies? Be happy. Fail exam? Be happy. Just be happy. No matter what happens, tell yourself that. Be happy be happy be happy. Smile as you spend another night alone, when you see the one girl who might have made you happy in someone else's arms. Against their lips. Smile.
Because the mind is quite a powerful thing. If you keep this up long enough, soon you will truly convince yourself you're happy. You can go to and from school or work or college and no matter what happened that day, you'll still be happy. Only in the early hours of the morning will the reality of it start to sink in, but you can just ignore this. And who's around to see your facade fall at 2 in the morning? No one, because god forbid they see the sad, self loathing person you are behind the mask. No, mask is not the right word.
Because it is not just a mask of a smile that you keep up, any one could do that. What this 'mind over body' stuff is true happiness, so long as you do not think about it. You can go about your day and be genuinely happy, with the new cheery demeanor, you can have friends again, maybe there'll even be a significant other who starts to show interest. You're actually happy. Until you are home of course, in the early morning, with no friends or cute girl to keep your mind off itself. That is when you start to remember how sad you are. You have time to think about everything in your life, and you remember why you shouldn't be happy. But of course the next morning comes with a whole new set of distractions and you can feel happy again.
It's early morning GTQ, and I feel like dying.
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