My Friend's Safe Space
Thread Topic: My Friend's Safe Space
I’m about to start crying again.
I already was earlier
Floris Flag Day…..
Basically a fair
I do not have good memories of fairs
I’m already nauseous this morning
I know I’m just going to make myself sick today
Especially if my mother makes me do the pie eating contest
The most exhausting day this month
My leg kept cramping up
I am officially colorblind.
My cat keeps laying by ,y side and purring. She loves me.
Now they think I’m upset. I’ve told them, nothing’s wrong
They don’t believe me
Very shortly returned. Amazing how much I hate myself.
I feel horrible. I can’t believe my depression is back. And I’m on f---ing meds!!!!!
But even worse….
I’m worried they hate me. I’d call ‘em if I could but…..
I hate what f---ing happened. I hate it!!!!
Medicine doesn't fix everything. Not saying to stop taking your meds. If they're not helping to at least slow the s*icidal thoughts, you should talk to your doctor so that you can get a different dosage or medicine that works. Also, the medicine won't work accurately as long as you're in the same position.
This is where I currently am, and I've changed meds twice already.
Medicine is only part of the healing, but it can't make you completely okay. It's not supposed to stop you from feeling depressed altogether.
I did start them recently. But I have severe anxiety and depression so I kinda hoped these could help. But I still have panic attacks, get sick with anxiety, drop to a deadly low and occasionally have those bad thoughts. Even though I rarely tell anyone. I’m not the way I used to be since I lost my friend.
It will take at least a month for the medicine to get into your system, and during that time, you might experience worsening symptoms. I had random crying fits and quite a few days of "bad thoughts" and anxiety attacks. It shouldn't stay that way. If it's still happening after the first month, you should mention it to your doctor. It started to die down for me at the half-way point.
And are you going to therapy? (You don't have to publicize that information if you don't wish to.) If you're not, see if your parents would be willing to help you get therapy. If they can't/won't, try to get a support group together and come up with things to do to cope. Come up with a list of emergency contacts so that if you need to talk to someone, there will be someone available if one person isn't.
I'm not an expert in this, but I just want to help as best I can. I've been through it, I'm still going through it, and I'd hate to see anyone else suffer through this.
Yeah I’m in therapy. I just…. f---ed up really bad and am worried about the lasting consequences for me and my friend. Even though they probably hate me now. I just don’t know.
A month? My psychiatrist said two weeks should be enough. Besides I only have enough for two weeks.
I understand your worry of lasting consequences and a f---ed up relationship. Trust me on that......
Well, two weeks is how long it takes to get into your system, but a month is how long it really takes to get in there and actually possibly see some results that you can notice for yourself.
Just try not to be too hard on yourself. One of the biggest things is stopping yourself from criticizing yourself and wondering "What if this bad thing happens?" All you can account for is the right here and now. I know it's hard to do this because I struggle with it myself, but if you find anything to lift yourself up with, it will help. Like, getting help, for starters, is a good thing. You're trying. And I don't believe you're a bad person. You've just made some bad decisions, but who hasn't? Even though you might've stirred up the site a few times, I don't think you're a bad person. Please remember this.🖤
Thank you. I usually don’t get to vent to a human. It’s usually just a cat, but having someone to talk to who has similar issues is comforting. Because I’m reminded that I’m not alone. Again, thank you.
But alas, it is about time for me to leave. Lots of s--- has gone down and I might need to leave soon. But again, thank you.
I'm happy to help whenever I can.
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