Fire Coming Out Of The Monkeys Head
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Thread Topic: Fire Coming Out Of The Monkeys Head
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f--- you. i needed you and you dropped me like a phase, like it was my fault that i was in a bad place mentally. could i have acted better? of course. but at least i was upfront and truthful. i gave you everything i could then some, but you stopped caring about me a while ago. when you stopped wanting to call or game, and forgot about me for hours because you were gaming with your friends. i did the same thing, but not multiple times in a day. i was fine with it, when i shouldnt have been. thats when you started choosing your friends over me. and you can call me childish all you want but it doesnt change how immature you were about it. throwing me away like some outdated toy. i cant even talk to you to tell you how i feel, which seems like the only thing that could make me better. i pushed you away and didnt tell you much, but i opened up to you and let you in. i stopped talking to my friends because it upset you and i told you how i felt or even if i couldnt. even though anytime i tried, youd stop caring or interrupt me. there were a lot of red flags i didnt see, and im sure its the same way for you. but i told you my concerns and my feelings and you disregarded them, so don't you dare f---ing say i didnt try. i did everything i could for you, even if i was too depressed to get out of bed id text you so you didnt think i was ignoring you. i know you did a lot for me but that doesnt mean it was for the right reasons. its pretty clear you just want to make yourself feel better, as soon as i helped build you up you just knocked me down and left. any time id bring it up to you it was always "its fine" "you are a good boyfriend" "im sure i still love you". at least when i said it i meant it, i never stopped loving you and i wish i could stop now.
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you think i couldnt handle it at times? it got overwhelming? but i loved you to the moon and back, and what did i get for it? a broken heart and melted mind
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I'm holding on so tightly now
My insides scream so loud
They keep watching, watching me drown
How did it come to this?
How did it come to this? How did I know it was you?
It was a bad dream asphyxiated, watch me bleed
The life support was cut, the knot was too tight
They push and pull me, but they know they'll never win
Throw it all away, throw it all away!
I keep on screaming, but there's really nothing left to say
So get away, just get away!
I keep on fighting, but I can't keep going on this way
I can't keep going, can't keep going on like this
They make me sick and I get so sick of it
'Cause they won't let me, they won't let me breathe
Why can't they let me be?
Why can't they let me be? Why don't I know what I am?
I force this hate into my heart 'cause it's my only friend
My lips are sewn shut, I watch myself bleed
They push and pull me and it's killing me within
Throw it all away, throw it all away!
I keep on screaming, but there's really nothing left to say
So get away, just get away!
I keep on fighting, but I can't keep going on this way
I can't keep going, can't keep going on this way
I can't keep going, can't keep going on this way
My heartbeat stumbles and my backbone crumbles
I feel, is it real as the lynch mob doubles?
They want blood and they'll kill for it, drain me and they'll kneel for it
Burned me at the stake, met the devil, made the deal for it
Guillotine dreams, yeah, their guillotine gleams
The blood of their enemies watching while they sentence me
Sentencing ceased, sentence deceased
And watch 'em bask in the glory of their holy disease
Throw it all away, throw it all away!
I keep on screaming, but there's really nothing left to say
So get away, so let just get away!
I keep on fighting, but I can't keep going on this way
I keep on running,
I keep on running,
I keep on running, but I can't keep going on this way
I keep on running,
I keep on running
I keep on running, but I can't keep going on this way -
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im actually going to school, getting ready for it rn
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