Thread Topic: Ripper's Edge
And then, whenever I'm trying to work, she just ignores that altogether and talks my head off. She gets offended when I get an attitude about how she interrupted my studies.
b----, I can't babysit you. Go take your chatty...elsewhere.
I need a house of my own, but when you're homeschooled, it's not like you can just pick up and leave your parents/teachers.
They won't support that and I have no means of money, so.
I think I'd thrive if they'd just let me go. I WANT the hard work and satisfactory of taking care of myself, but they won't let me try until I'm done with school.
Can you imagine begging for a job just for your parents to say "no"? Like, what the world? Why not?
"I don't want you going anywhere without your brothers. Whenever you go somewhere, they'll go with you to keep an eye on you," my mom says.
Then, the uncomfortable questions that always come up the second I leave her sight. When I'm obviously okay, she's like, "Did someone hurt you? Did anyone try to make you do something that's not right? Did a boy touch you? Did anyone make you uncomfortable in any way?"
Yeah, you did! Just shut the f--- up!
I'm old enough to take care of myself, and I refuse to have my brothers glued to my sides until I die!
I want to be ME, and I can't do me if you're shoving all these people with me just to "keep me safe". But where are you and all those people when I could use it most? You don't understand what I'm going through and therefore, you use this time to turn me down and say I'm overreacting.
I have every right to be angry, so don't ask me why I'm angry, Mom!
And to think, my ranting started all because my mom used my bathroom again.
Little things get to me, but I don't feel anywhere near calm, right now.
No, I don't take too kindly to your authority because you walk all over me. How the heck do you expect me to respect you? You want it? Give it. You don't give but you still want it? Harsh!
At some point, you lost my trust, respect, and everything else you could possibly hope to have. Doesn't mean I don't love you, I just can't deal anymore. Go play that game with somebody else. You got three other folks to screw over, so stop targeting me.
She plays self-pity like I'm the bad guy, and everyone takes her side. She be like, "Why don't you love me? Why don't we spend time together anymore? Why don't you--"
You should know "Why don't I" with you. I don't because it's the only time we get along--when we're not together at all. Just accept that you took it this far. Don't be a baby about it.
I feel like she's never really liked me though, and if she did, it changed when I reached the age to develop my own mind and opinions.
She gets angry when I don't want to be the girly-girl I used to be who ran around in dresses all the time. She hates that I'm only into videogames and anime, not the "more refined" junk I used to do, like tea parties.
I don't care what you don't like. It's my choice, so if you don't like it, then leave me alone.
I'm not in your life to be your doormat, and I won't do it for anyone else, either.
Been through a lot, and you out of all people should know that. I don't play games and I don't take s---.
I'm angry, but I'm not ready to calm down, yet. I feel like I've still got a lot I haven't gotten off my chest.
Felt kinda good to at least state that much.
I'm also angry at myself, on an unrelated note, because my spelling is so bad!!!
I honestly don't know what to say, now.
Was that it?
I have a horrible temper, but I control it when it matters most. So, I've never hurt anyone because of it, thank goodness, but my words can have a serious edge to them.
Please be patient with me. I know I'm a lot of work, but I try so hard. Don't give up on me.
I miss him...
I get so distracted when I think about him, I forget I was supposed to be angry.
As Amy Rose said:
WHER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARE YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU????????!!!!
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