The truth is that I've always been lonely. In my past, I've tried to make friends when it was easier and my parents we open to it. I made one friend, and we used to play together all the time. My mom said I was crazy about playing with him. And he was the only boy I ever knew like that. And I was 2 years old...too young to remember.
She mentions his name every once in a while, but I swear I don't know who she's talking about.
I had a mild anxiety attack when she thought about taking me to see him, one day. I felt that'd be weird since I don't remember him, and I refused to go.
I don't push away people purposefully; it's just a bad habit I revert to in order to protect myself. Because every time I try to open up, something bad happens. It's like the world is trying to tell me that it's always better if I don't interact. But I'm always miserable for not trying, then.
I wanna cry in someone's arms.
Crying isn't allowed, here, so I have to do it when no one's around, or else they'll yell at me and get really angry and eventually ground me.
Thank you for calling me a crybaby all those times I fell and got hurt, all those times someone verbally abused me, all those times I was treated badly.
You didn't teach me not to cry...you only taught me to cry more.
”You’ve got it all wrong. You were the lightning in that rain. You can still shine through the darkness” Solid Snake MGS4
Snake says this to Raiden after he tells him that “it even rained the day I was born.” Raiden is having some serious negativity issues at the time and Snake does what he can to snap him out of it. It’s a great lesson on thinking positively. It’s the last on the list because it’s not exactly tremendous, but with a quick change in mindset Snake brings some positivity into a negative situation.
