Overall, I've been feeling kind of sick. But, not the sneezy, sniffley, vomity kind.
I just don't know what to call this state I'm in. It doesn't feel well, and it's draining me.
Wouldn't mind being coddled and cared for.
I get tired of always having to be everything for myself. Yes, I know how to take care of myself, but to do it all the time all alone...
I have to tell myself I'm okay. I have to hug myself when I'm sad. I know it's more mature of me to do it, but I'm just losing motivation to do this, and energy, if that makes sense.
But, I don't want to sound like I'm demanding someone to care for me.
Is it wrong to feel this way?
It's Friday, isn't it?
Hm...
I can barely survive the weekends. I have nothing to do, and when I have nothing to do, that leaves room for me to...do bad things.
We're trying to change this, but I'm not having much luck.
I think I'm going to paint my nails tomorrow. But then what? And should I really?
Idk.
